I don't wanna love damn Jonah. I've got so many other sweet boys to like. Luckily they're awesome to me, and I might have a chance. Played some Battleship with Jeevan today. He's so funny! We were laughing so much, haha, and I almost asked him out...
But then I chickened out. Lulz. I instead asked him if he liked playing tuba more than trumpet. Hmm. I want to date him or Garret. I'm getting antsy. I'm too scared to ask them D:
Anyways enough talking. Bleh. Here's a random poem.
Love Prevention Machine
I have to fight, I have to fly
My sweetest escape, my final goodbye
It's time to go, I have to leave
I cannot stay , I cannot breathe
Causing myself to always bleed
That pain is something that I need
Freedom is like a breath of fresh air
I'm all by myself, you're not there
I wonder if this is what I needed
A life where I am not mistreated
By all the people I adore
I just can't take it anymore...
Can't take all the attention
I need a bit of love prevention
Oh yeah, love prevention machine
Take me to a place I've never seen
Hold me in your metal arms
Wake me with your loud alarms
Keep me sane and keep me awake
Always give and never take
See that I can keep away
From love until another day
He was not ready, he was not right
To live the life and fight the fight
I know out there, there is another
A good and strong protective lover
For them I'll wait a thousand years
I will cry a million tears!
Until the day that I will meet
Someone who will press "Delete"
On the keyboard of my mind
And so my memories will unwind
Forgetting all my darkened past
Our love will forever last.
And then I'll start all over again.