I'm dying, from the inside out... Sometimes this happens when you realize...

Dracofangxxx's picture

That really, the more depressing or awesome a title is, the more people will read it. That saddens me. I haven't gotten like any comments for a while XD and I've even been posting happy stuff! That's rare for me! I mean everyone tells me I complain too much... but if I don't complain, people ignore me >.>;;

I guess I should stay true to the title and contradictory to my journal, and actually write what's bothering me.

There's so much going on. It's like a whirlwind of emotions, of sights, smells... sensations... emotions... I don't know where to begin. I know if I make this too long nobody will comment or read it... We're all lazy like that. Even though we have all the time in the world to sit at our computers, if something is too long...
it's all "TL;DR" >.<

I'm currently having this big heart-to-heart with my bestest buddy Hannah. I feel so bad. There's so much anger and tension and just... she feels so... terrible... I love her, really I do, she's amazing to me <3 I really really really wanna help. So I'm trying.

I am in the quote-y est mood today, and so here I go.

"Time does not heal your wounds, it makes you forget about them. After all, it'll never heal up if you keep picking at it."

Hannah: Clean slates are daunting and scary yet hard to resist.
me: My slate's covered in ickyness
I only really truly have a few VERY close friends.
I've got a lot of "oh I'm your friend today, but tomorrow I hate you" friends
Hannah: Exactly

Hannah: I want to have the perfect best friend which is impossible but I can still dream. I want to have someone who would listen to my problems and always know what to do or present me with some kind of solutionnish thing or understand my view.
me: You have one.
Yourself.
and I try, I really do... but nobody's perfect. If everyone was, it'd be so boring.

♫ We'll burn the book where you wrote that song; Burn everything until it is gone; The fire igniting everything around; Lighting up the darkness without a sound; Within the flames you shall be consumed; There will be no bodies ever exhumed

Anyways. Random stuff I've said today.

Good stuff to say. I stayed after school for honor society (Even though I'm not in it! :D) and helped clean and stuff. Lots of fun. I'm such a rebel. I crashed honor society! XDDD

I was gonna write a hell of a lot more, but I have to finish my work. I'm getting real behind.

I'll feature it in a not-very-awesomely titled journal and see if as many people read it.

Hah.

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ferrets's picture

welll

ill admit, a title is important. but maybe if ur posting happy stuff, even if ppl read, they dont find it neceassary to post since you seem to be doing great.

Half a league half a league,
Half a league onward,
All in the valley of Death
Rode the six hundred:
'Forward, the Light Brigade!
Charge for the guns' he said:
Into the valley of Death
Rode the six hundred.

'Forward, the Light Brigade!'

Wolfcry's picture

You are very random aren't

You are very random aren't you? lol

"Oh what tangled webs we weave, When we practice to deceive. I know you well, Actions and motives. Bear the cross, wear the crown, it's just some evil you can't bleed out. Hell has to notice, Your actions and motives." 10 Years, Actions And Motives