It's Been Too Long

saves_the_day's picture

This is my first time logging into my Oasismag account since 3/4/07. Two years is a long time. I'm not even sure how I remembered my user name after all that time, but somehow I managed.

It's been a while since I wrote out how I'm feeling and I think it's time that I do it again. It's always helped in the past and well, quite frankly, sometimes rambling makes everyone feel better.

I met my first love via Oasis. She was amazing and the year we spent together as a couple was more than what I could have asked for and even though we aren't together anymore we still talk and most of the rough patches between us have smoothed out. I came on here looking for help with my coming out process and ended up finding my first Love...my first REAL love...and a good friend, a couple good friends actually.

As for where I'm at in my life right now...it's still a mess, but I'm working on it. I'm currently in what seems to be a dead end relationship, but I'm so terrified of being alone I won't rip the band-aid off completely. I just lift it off the skin, peek to see if it's still bleeding, get scared of the sight of my own blood, and cover it back up.

I guess I'm back on here to look for a voice of reason, a confidant, a friend.

It's good to be back.

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Dracofangxxx's picture

It's very nice to meet you.

It's very nice to meet you. I'm Shelby, I joined a few months ago. I'm a little bipolar sometimes XD but otherwise, I'd love to talk if you need to :)

Welcome back! <3
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Sometimes I like to sit at night and stare at the lamppost because it's the brightest thing in my life...

ferrets's picture

hello

nice to as a person back :)

Half a league half a league,
Half a league onward,
All in the valley of Death
Rode the six hundred:
'Forward, the Light Brigade!
Charge for the guns' he said:
Into the valley of Death
Rode the six hundred.

'Forward, the Light Brigade!'