This is my first time logging into my Oasismag account since 3/4/07. Two years is a long time. I'm not even sure how I remembered my user name after all that time, but somehow I managed.
It's been a while since I wrote out how I'm feeling and I think it's time that I do it again. It's always helped in the past and well, quite frankly, sometimes rambling makes everyone feel better.
I met my first love via Oasis. She was amazing and the year we spent together as a couple was more than what I could have asked for and even though we aren't together anymore we still talk and most of the rough patches between us have smoothed out. I came on here looking for help with my coming out process and ended up finding my first Love...my first REAL love...and a good friend, a couple good friends actually.
As for where I'm at in my life right now...it's still a mess, but I'm working on it. I'm currently in what seems to be a dead end relationship, but I'm so terrified of being alone I won't rip the band-aid off completely. I just lift it off the skin, peek to see if it's still bleeding, get scared of the sight of my own blood, and cover it back up.
I guess I'm back on here to look for a voice of reason, a confidant, a friend.
It's good to be back.