But it doesn't bother me any more.
I'm not IN love you know. I just love. It's stupid because I told myself to get over him, and I guess I did. But I love him now and it scares me a little because his life is moving and mine... isn't.
He's getting surgery and going to college and I'm staying here hoping that I can find the money for surgery, so that I -can- get surgery too, but it probably won't be for a while. Then I'll go to college, but probably not the same one as him. And I want him to make friends when he gets to college but... I'm afraid he'll forget about me.
College does that to people.
If my other friends forget about me, oh well. But I don't want -him- to forget about me.
I hate when I get attached to people. I hate being reliant on something I can't rely on.
And I can't rely on people.
Because people are stupid and crazy and liars. He's not any of those, but he's still a person and he's subject to human emotions and when you're surrounded by new people you actually get along with it's easy to forget your old friends, or at least, lose touch.
Maybe I worry too much...