Time machine, please, someone, anybody, send me one... I need to escape today...

Dracofangxxx's picture

I had an emotional breakdown. The worst one since the breakup.

In third period.

I was bawling so hard, just in class. I don't know if I'm supposed to explain why. I'll wait a week and then maybe I will.

I'm going downhill so fast. And now... Now he's... Gone. I just want to be left alone. Mother doesn't understand. She doesn't get why I'm so angry all the time. I'm "Unappreciative".

I'm not. I'm dying a bit every day, and living a bit too. Slowly, the living is catching up. I'm proud. But scared. So scared of life again. I'm terrified.

I'm slipping lately. Slipping fast down the side of a mountain.

And I don't know where the cliff is.

Going to Garret's tomorrow. I'm also scared of that. But he's sweet, so I'm sure it'll be fun.

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fox333's picture

*HUGS* Im sorry I don't know

*HUGS* Im sorry I don't know what more I can do. :( but i am always her if you want to talk.

A man is educated and turned out to work. But a woman is educated and turned out to grass.
Pearl S. Buck

625539's picture

hey kiddo,
don't beat yourself up over this.
*hugs* ♥.

typicalmusician's picture

The living should keep

The living should keep catching up, even if it sometimes kind of runs away. And it can be terrifyingly different...it is to me too. With weird twisted moments that seem to belong in a past time when breaking down was the appropriate reaction, but it's just unexplainable at this point...but it happens and then you have to deal with it and whatever and go on.
I don't know if that made sense, but my signature stands for a Churchill quote: "keep buggering on". It's about the only option for us crazy emotionally inbetween people. Keep going. *hugs*

-KBO-

fox333's picture

I think that buggering was

I think that buggering was also a word for gay sex in England.

A man is educated and turned out to work. But a woman is educated and turned out to grass.
Pearl S. Buck