Wow... Never Again

TotalGeek42's picture

I went to karate today without my binder on... I can't do that. Which also means I can't do any sports that require more effort than karate without dying.. great. ><

It was just... I dunno, I wasn't hating myself the whole time or anything, but I couldn't stop thinking about it.. whether or not I was showing, making sure my uniform was loose enough that I -wasn't-... And I just can't go through that any more frequently than that.

When I'm binding I still worry about whether or not I'm showing, but not all the time... not nonstop. I get a break, and it doesn't even really hurt me -that- much... usually. Sometimes it does, actually, which I'm still trying to figure out, but.. meh.

Just... never again. *shudders*

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Wolfcry's picture

*hugs* it will be okay...

*hugs* it will be okay...

"This is what I thought, I thought you need me, This is what I thought so think me naïve, I promise you a heart you'd promise to keep, Kiss my eyes and lay me to sleep." Prelude 12/21 - AFI

TotalGeek42's picture

Haha, thanks. ^^ "Assets,

Haha, thanks. ^^

"Assets, assets..."

"Well I've got a banana, and in a pinch you could put up some shelves..."

"Dreaming that someone unknown has died means that either you've been watching too much CSI..." - 5thstory

Riku's picture

That's what I was like the

That's what I was like the last time I tried going to school without a binder. I was also super-alert for people who might want to hug me. XP

It sucks doesn't it?

TotalGeek42's picture

Yeah... no fun. >< "Assets,

Yeah... no fun. ><

"Assets, assets..."

"Well I've got a banana, and in a pinch you could put up some shelves..."

"Dreaming that someone unknown has died means that either you've been watching too much CSI..." - 5thstory

Dracofangxxx's picture

I might sound super-naiive,

I might sound super-naiive, but what's a binder...?
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Sometimes I like to sit at night and stare at the lamppost because it's the brightest thing in my life...

swimmerguy's picture

I applaud you for asking that

Someone once said "Better to ask a question and be a fool for 5 minutes rather than stay silent and remain a fool forever".
I really don't know though...

"The sole right of a human being is the right to do whatever you damn well please. Their sole duty is to take responsibility for their actions" ~ P.J. O'Rourke

Riku's picture

it's a binding device for us

it's a binding device for us transguys who have unwanted chest fat. It's uncomfortable, and possibly damaging, but it gives the chest a male appearance.

Dracofangxxx's picture

Oh... I should try doing

Oh... I should try doing that and see if anybody notices. Thank you!
I wonder if I could pull off being trans? It sounds fun... and plus... I feel more male than female most often...
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Sometimes I like to sit at night and stare at the lamppost because it's the brightest thing in my life...

Riku's picture

Ohman. You've got some

Ohman. You've got some interesting definition of fun that I must have been previously unaware of.

It's an adventure, a journey even, but I wouldn't call it "fun". Heh. |D; And plus, being trans isn't really something people "pull off". I'm transgender because I'm a boy who was assigned "female" at birth and was raised thinking I was a girl. This would be the case no matter how many people read me as male upon meeting me.

Sorry if I seem kind of lecture-y it's a bit of a sensitive subject with me. >_>

tenmilestilts's picture

no, if you hadn't lectured a

no, if you hadn't lectured a little i would've, and i'm not even trans...but just like being gay, it's not something you can "try out" or play around with.
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Riku's picture

Though, that said, there are

Though, that said, there are a lot of people who play around with their gender presentation, which is okay too, but they're not the same thing.

TotalGeek42's picture

Heh... I know Riku already

Heh... I know Riku already lectured, but I really can't help it...

Being trans isn't fun... and it's something that you have to deal with all the time, not just something that you try to pull off... Most trans people would kill -not- to be trans.

Dressing in drag is a completely different thing; that's something that the people who do find fun... and try to 'pull off'. I assume that's what you were thinking of? Go ahead and try that all you want. xD

"Assets, assets..."

"Well I've got a banana, and in a pinch you could put up some shelves..."

"Dreaming that someone unknown has died means that either you've been watching too much CSI..." - 5thstory

ferrets's picture

i knows :)

its(please correct me if im wrong) its a tight picece of something or another that when put on makes a ftm's chest flatter and more publicley presentable

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