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808Chik's picture

..."let you go, walk away. dont turn around, nothing to say. before another lover is lost, baby because I was just an afterthought..."

this is actually a nice deep song.
Afterthoughts by: Unknown.

i'm home.
today was the first day of my 6-day work week.
5 more days to go.
...
i'm glad that i had the weekend to try and rest up for this week.
i think i'm beginning to not have a life...again.
when i first started working at Jamba in 2007.
all i did was work. or was at work.
if i wasn't at school or work...i was at home.
and if i wasn't at school or home...i was at work.
and now...its getting the same way.
i literally spent my weekend at work. and i didn't have to work.
except saturday, but even saturday i wasn't supposed to work...i volunteered.
-_-
...
but other than work...
i finally got to hangout with a newly close friend of mine.
she'd always inviting me out to hang out with her and her friends but i always refuse and not go.
but i decided that i needed a night out.
-plus my coworkers and friend said i needed to go lol.
...
so i went.
i went with her for a little party at her friends house.
there was about 6 of us at first just chilling and drinking.
i got to play beerpong for the first time :)
but me n the girl lost :(
we were winnning tho haha.
then 4 more people came.
we took shots.
kahlua&baileys. yum.
and UV blue. yum.
:D
...
i haven't drank since new years.
so i was limiting myself 'cause i had to drive home too.
i had about 4 heinekens and 2 shots.
i was buzzed but not close to being drunk lol.
just enough to feel good!
...

it was actually a good night.
got to meet new people.
drink.
try to forget shit.
which never happened 'cause i ended up txting her.
and it ended up in us fighting when i got home 'cause she was mad that i was drinking...
cause of my past experiences in drinking.
-_-
i hate that i love her so much.
i hate that i can't let her go.
i hate that i want to be with her so much.
...
ergh.
this is why i've been working so much.
to keep myself busy.
...
i'm just waiting for things to slowly fall into place.
...
bleh.

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Tophat's picture

I'd usually offer something cheery...

But right now I feel like saying...

Odds are, it ain't falling into place. Things don't work themselves out.

About drinking... Sounds like a great idea. Maybe It'll calm my buzzing mind and let me sleep.

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I love you.

808Chik's picture

yeah i know. thanks tho

yeah i know.
thanks tho :)

"i am who i am, so don't judge me for being myself"