i just got off of work 3 hours ago.
i have school & work tomorrow, going to be out from 8am to 8pm.
i should be happy.
school and work, are going well. besides the point that i have debts that need to be paid.
i'm content with how things are with school and work.
i'm not happy.
i don't need to have/be with someone to be happy.
but i am happy with that person.
that person apparently...
has me only as a second option.
a fucking second option.
...when i'm supposed to be the one she loves?
i believe that she doesn't love me.
for all i know...i really am overreacting and she does love me.
but how will i know, right?
i hate love.
i really do.
i'm just going to sit here at home and go from A to Z on my iPod library and delete/add songs.