My grandma's journal...

TotalGeek42's picture

I read the entry I talked about earlier today. My mum found it funny... I found it offensive. I know it wasn't her fault, she didn't know much, but... it was offensive. I dunno, it was all like.. Jeez, I dun even know anymore. But it was annoying..

And at the end it said "I just hope that she comes to term with her gender and can live her path in a fulfilling way."

My grandma, after knowing I read that, said nothing other than "Your mum found it hilarious. I kept asking her 'Don't you remember when Skylar was six she said she wanted to be a boy?' but she didn't remember."

Just the whole thing insinuated, to me, that she still hopes I'll go back to being a 'girl' (which I never was, by the way). I definitely feel like none of my family, other than maybe my sister and my stepdad.. possibly my dad.. use the right pronouns when they're not around me. Definitely not my grandma.. almost definitely not my mum. I dunno... it annoys me.

In other news, my ribs hurt like hell, my knees not much better and every other part of my body isn't far behind. But I'm cool with that, I guess. It's just my ribs that piss me off, cuz that... well, that's cuz of binding. Anythign else was necessary to fulfill my weekend. *shrugs*

I hate school. >>

I promise I'm not as depressed as this journal makes me sound. It's just all of the negativity in me flowing out right now.. probably because I just watched a negative episode of doogie howser. xD

I miss how I met your mother and chuck though! There need to be new episodes! Now that all of the olympic sports I cared about in more than a "Ooh, olympics!" sense are over with..

Yeahhh. I'm done. Bye..



Dracofangxxx's picture

I'm sorry you're hurting :C

I'm sorry you're hurting :C That must suck. Although frankly, I think I missed the memo about your "Grandmas Journal". Maybe I read something too fast in previous journals? o.o
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TotalGeek42's picture

Eh, I had a journal about it

Eh, I had a journal about it a while ago... *shrugs*

"Assets, assets..."

"Well I've got a banana, and in a pinch you could put up some shelves..."

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Riku's picture

Ack. I haven't even spoken

Ack. I haven't even spoken to my grandparents about that, but I get what you're saying. I'm almost positive that up until last summer my mom was calling me the wrong pronouns to everyone... And I had been out to her for the better part of a year by then. But I mean, last year she told me her boyfriend who wasn't her boyfriend until after I came out to her, was going to 'try to call me the right pronouns' and you have no idea how much that pissed me off. There should be none of that, he doesn't have an excuse for calling me the wrong pronouns because he's got zilch to adjust to.

And I'm nearly 100% sure that my grandparents on my moms side don't even bother to use the right pronouns. They didn't while I was around last summer so why should they when I'm not? Either way they hardly ever talk to me anymore.

I hope you start feeling better soon. The whole ribs-hurty thing sucks. XP Gets lots of rest and bind minimally until you feel better again. [/mother hen]

TotalGeek42's picture

Yeah.. I mean I guess I

Yeah.. I mean I guess I don't have a rational reason to think she's like that, but I know her... and whenever it's been mentioned she just acts like.. she doesn't use the right pronouns. I dunno, she's bizarre. xD

Yeah, yeah. Jeez, I have enough parents already, I don't need another. ;)

"Assets, assets..."

"Well I've got a banana, and in a pinch you could put up some shelves..."

"Dreaming that someone unknown has died means that either you've been watching too much CSI..." - 5thstory