Spring Awakening..

TotalGeek42's picture

Anybody know that play? Well, I went to go see it today. It was kinda amazing. Mind you, I've seen it before... but a longgg time ago. With the original cast.. so seeing it again was nice.

It got my parents thinking though, about how at that age nobody feels like they have control of their lives. Which made me think about how much I felt like I could do to control my life... how much control adults have over me, and society, and how much stability I have.

And I may not have friends committing suicide (although there was a really close call once...) and I may not have friends getting other friends pregnant, but..

I dunno, I feel like in a lot of ways my life is controlled by society. Like... maybe where I live I'm fine, but if I were to live even in a different town? Would I even be able to be who I am? And even being able to be myself, there's nothign I can do about other issues that I have. I can't change the fact that there are some days that looking in the mirror makes me wanna scream...

A lot of the play also had to do with sexuality and all that... and it just made me think, like... well, I dunno. It's too complicated to explain, really... but some part of me, the teenage guy part of me, wants all that. I know even if I had a boyfriend I woudln't be able to, cuz it'd just be too weird.. I'm too uncomfortable with my body. But... meh.

Maybe it's weird that I'm saying all of this here, out in the open. Probably is, really... but that's okay.

Life is complicated. :P

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tenmilestilts's picture

omg, just the whole

omg, just the whole society-having-control-over-you thing, that's really funny, cuz we had this extra credit assignment where you do a parody on/redux of the declaration of independence, and i declared independence from society. =P kind of sounds like the same idea as you have here, with society having so much control over you and your personality.
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TotalGeek42's picture

Hahaha, yeah... maybe

Hahaha, yeah... maybe governmentally speaking we're a free country, but that's not as true as far as society goes..

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Naimah's picture

Moritz Stiefel = win

I love Spring Awakening.
I'm going through my quarter life crisis and I've been thinking about this stuff a lot.

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Naimah

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"The best way to do is to be." --Lao Tzu
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"To be is to do." --Emanuel Kant

Naimah's picture

Moritz Stiefel = win

I love Spring Awakening.
I'm going through my quarter life crisis and I've been thinking about this stuff a lot.

~~~~~~~~~~~
Naimah

"Duct tape is like the Force. It has a light side and a dark side and it holds the universe together."

"The best way to do is to be." --Lao Tzu
"To do is to be." --Freidrick Neitzche
"To be is to do." --Emanuel Kant

TotalGeek42's picture

Hahahaha... quarter life

Hahahaha... quarter life crisis... I think I'm having one of those. xD

Well... maybe more like fifth of life crisis... xD

"Assets, assets..."

"Well I've got a banana, and in a pinch you could put up some shelves..."

"Dreaming that someone unknown has died means that either you've been watching too much CSI..." - 5thstory

Riku's picture

You know I have a friend who

You know I have a friend who went to see that too? Probably saw the same show as you, she said she was on the stage even. Maybe you saw her...?

And yeah, I know what you mean about wishing you could like, express yourself sexually or some such but being unable to. Because of my chest I wouldn't even be willing to be held let alone anything else. XP

TotalGeek42's picture

Haha, really? That's funny,

Haha, really? That's funny, my family was talking about how awesome it would be to get one of the stage seats... xD

Yeah... it kinda sucks. >>

"Assets, assets..."

"Well I've got a banana, and in a pinch you could put up some shelves..."

"Dreaming that someone unknown has died means that either you've been watching too much CSI..." - 5thstory