Anybody know that play? Well, I went to go see it today. It was kinda amazing. Mind you, I've seen it before... but a longgg time ago. With the original cast.. so seeing it again was nice.
It got my parents thinking though, about how at that age nobody feels like they have control of their lives. Which made me think about how much I felt like I could do to control my life... how much control adults have over me, and society, and how much stability I have.
And I may not have friends committing suicide (although there was a really close call once...) and I may not have friends getting other friends pregnant, but..
I dunno, I feel like in a lot of ways my life is controlled by society. Like... maybe where I live I'm fine, but if I were to live even in a different town? Would I even be able to be who I am? And even being able to be myself, there's nothign I can do about other issues that I have. I can't change the fact that there are some days that looking in the mirror makes me wanna scream...
A lot of the play also had to do with sexuality and all that... and it just made me think, like... well, I dunno. It's too complicated to explain, really... but some part of me, the teenage guy part of me, wants all that. I know even if I had a boyfriend I woudln't be able to, cuz it'd just be too weird.. I'm too uncomfortable with my body. But... meh.
Maybe it's weird that I'm saying all of this here, out in the open. Probably is, really... but that's okay.
Life is complicated. :P