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this weekend and today freaking sux. idk if i should use the real F word, but i want to. FUCK. ok. i said it. who cares.

so, i was supposed to see fred on friday. my mom decided i should stay home that day. any other day, she wants me out. not that day. then she goes and lets my little bro go and see a movie with his friend. so totally wrong.

then my mom's supposed ex bf, comes over and stays the whole weeekend. hes still there rite now, eating up everything. at least he brought his dogs... i love them.

monday sucked horribly. we got a flat tire on the way to school and my mom had a doctor's appointment. so we were running late. then she just decided we could take the day off. the whole day i sat on the couch bored as can be. i drew. its a beautiful drawing i guess. and i should be thankful i got the chance to draw it. so yea, thnx higher power (whoever you are)...

then today... was maybe the worst day. lance told me today that he doesnt love me and that he never truly did. he called it "infatuation". i almost started to cry before i though about it. he said maybe love will strike up later in life. but the tears really arent worth losing for him. i loved him always. maybe always will. idk. but after today, im not chasing him anymore... not anymore.

so rite now, i feel confused. i want to cry, but the tears wont come. everyone is talking, but i hear no words (im wearing earphones). i love him, but i dont. why me? well, spring break is next week. maybe something will happen. hopefully fred isnt like lance and just infatuated with me...