i feel like going to sleep (preferably a coma) for awhile. i really should be working on my draft instead of writing this. but it can go to hell for all i care. im not going to be an architect. not after being in this class. and i hate geometry. and im going to just go with the flow and love Lance back. even if there are more fishes out there... i love him to death.
i just have to survive these long 2 years without him. through high school, my bible thumping mother, homophobes, and did i list high school? after i move to KY, i can't come out of the closet again. mommy said so. my little bro will be in high school my senior year. and she doesnt want him to get picked on because he has a "faggot" brother. i understand that, from a straight person's view, but what about me? don't i have rights too? oh, wait, i guess i dont get rights anymore. Not in AMERICA. i can just imagine the statue of liberty pointing and laughing, "u dont get rights here, faggot! haha!" then id burn her down. and laugh. (i'm not a terrorist, btw).
i feel like crying. i think. maybe its just because its raining outside. i hate rain. it was sunny this weekend. what th "F " happened? oh, well.
i need a temporary bf... then life will go by faster. at least until high school ends. maybe that really cute guy in tripps...
i think life just got a bit better.... ^__^