ughhhhhhhh.......

lordmomofenixed's picture

i feel like going to sleep (preferably a coma) for awhile. i really should be working on my draft instead of writing this. but it can go to hell for all i care. im not going to be an architect. not after being in this class. and i hate geometry. and im going to just go with the flow and love Lance back. even if there are more fishes out there... i love him to death.

i just have to survive these long 2 years without him. through high school, my bible thumping mother, homophobes, and did i list high school? after i move to KY, i can't come out of the closet again. mommy said so. my little bro will be in high school my senior year. and she doesnt want him to get picked on because he has a "faggot" brother. i understand that, from a straight person's view, but what about me? don't i have rights too? oh, wait, i guess i dont get rights anymore. Not in AMERICA. i can just imagine the statue of liberty pointing and laughing, "u dont get rights here, faggot! haha!" then id burn her down. and laugh. (i'm not a terrorist, btw).

i feel like crying. i think. maybe its just because its raining outside. i hate rain. it was sunny this weekend. what th "F " happened? oh, well.

i need a temporary bf... then life will go by faster. at least until high school ends. maybe that really cute guy in tripps...

i think life just got a bit better.... ^__^

Comments

elph's picture

Challenges to overcome

Had you at one time planned on becoming an architect? I don't see it listed amongst your "interests."

I suspect your dislike of geometry is because your teacher fails to make it interesting: Look at it as an enjoyable game or puzzle...

As for Lance... You're setting yourself up for a difficult time. It's great that you wish to remain friends, but don't automatically reject the many potential friends you'll meet in KY.

I'm confident that you'll survive exile :)

jeff's picture

Hmm...

It can't be too bad there. They named a lube after it. ;-)

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"Wanting to be someone else is a waste of the person you are." - Kurt Cobain

BBNiNi's picture

:/

well, it's good that your mom is thinking about your brother and how he will be treated, but still, what about you? you shouldnt hide yourself from everybody else. hm, there should be a way that you could be you while your brother isnt picked on or anything... eh, but you're kinda right about the rights thing. but just wait until we do, then we can be as gay as we'd like, but until then, we have to keep it low or just stay hidden in the closet 'til it's "safe." hm, even if we do get rights, it still wont stop the hate.

"i can just imagine the statue of liberty pointing and laughing, "u dont get rights here, faggot! haha!" then id burn her down. and laugh." wow, you put this in words better than i ever could XD

lordmomofenixed's picture

thnx

ur rite, about rites. thats what scares me. will it get even worse?
a psychotic pencilist, moe

jeff's picture

Uhh...

Having rights has no bearing on being free. There are currently no proposed laws that will bring you happiness, and none on the books that will, either. The Equal Rights amendment didn't get rid of racism, so... at the end of the day, your happiness is all up to you, and there's nothing stopping you from claiming it today. People who get married when it's legal already have loving relationships, etc.

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"Wanting to be someone else is a waste of the person you are." - Kurt Cobain

ferrets's picture

hmmmm

i has a sulution :D
you come out
your little bro gets picked on(IF that would even happen)
you punch bully
you get detention
oh wiat that ended not well :/ sorry

"...I find it kinda funny,I find it kinda sad, that the dreams where i am dieing are the best I've ever had..." -gary jules