Today I've felt very... down? Distressed? Tearful? I'm not entirely sure how to describe it. I feel awful. I got into a big argument first thing this morning with those guys. Apparently, it's okay to shoot gay people because we're "molesters". Wow.
That just kind of set the day off wrong, really. Oh, [That Guy]'s mom is obsessed with my drawing. It's a little freaky... She just hovers over me and watches me color it, and it's so awkward. (It's art class, in case I haven't said so.)
French Class Girl tried to hug Irritating Girl again today, and Irritating Girl wasn't expecting it. Irritating Girl stumbled back, causing French Class Girl to slip with her. It was so hilarious.
French Class Girl: IRRITATING GIRL WHY DIDN'T YOU CATCH ME!? :(
Irritating Girl: Uhh, was I supposed to...?
Oh, and one of the guys I argued with accidentally called himself gay, then vehemently denied ever saying it. True mistake or Freudian slip? Hmm...
Those were really the only funny things that happened today. Today was just... shitty. My English teacher went on a rant about how no one "appreciates" school and how everyone will miss it when they finally leave.
Nope, pretty sure I'm not going to miss crying 3-4 nights a week because I hate my town, my surroundings, and 90% of the people I'm forced to be around daily. Does anyone actually miss high school? I saw one of my older friends today, and I asked her if she missed high school, and she looked at me like I'd grown five heads and a tail.
Then I started thinking about how by the time I graduate high school, move off, and start college, I will have wasted almost nineteen years of my life doing meaningless bullshit in the middle of nowhere. This upset me even more. That's a long time to waste living somewhere you can't stand.
And then of course, my brain's whole "Oh and you'll never get a girlfriend either. You're too ugly and weird and awkward" crap started in. I hate it when I do that, especially because I've been feeling particularly ugly lately. I always try to avoid all mirrors at school because the school uniform has a tendency to make me look fatter and shorter than I already am. >:C
I'm still feeling socially inept. :( My friend was online for an hour, and I didn't even talk to her. FAIL.