Today I was supposed to stay silent.
I failed miserably out of fear of getting in trouble by a teacher. Plus... I'm weak. I like talking. It reminds me I'm alive.
I got my blood test back today. After much fear, I have normal Iron levels in my blood. I'm healthy...!
How happy. I was very scared.
SPEAKING OF BLOOD...
TO THE MENS. I'd just suggest skipping this next part. It's about womanlyness.
Today in PE a terrible thing happened. I started my period yesterday, which means I'm heavy for the next five or so P:
I got done swimming and stepped out of the pool... And sat down. That's when I realized that I was bleeding. Nothing was dripping, thank god, but I felt it. I got into the locker room, panicked, and changed. Taking off my bathing suit bottoms, I bled out this gross puddle of ew all over the floor. It was SO RED. I FREAKED OUT and started crying. I changed, and used my bathing suit to clean it up, but I was just in tears. Why? Why did it have to happen THEN? What would have happened if I was with the other girls? I was just so embarrassed by something that I couldn't even control. It was strange. I felt gross after all that; like I had a secret I couldn't tell anyone.
I guess I just broke that rule P:
Can't wait for my birth control pills. Because then I won't have to worry about swimming and having the large tampons only work for an hour. Sigh.
Anyways, sorry men if you read that.
but yeah. No more of that stuff.
If there's one thing that today taught me, it's that I have so much to say that I keep inside my head.
I finally told Hannah today how important she really was to me. I never thought about it, but she's one of the reasons why I'm still alive. Without her... Without you too, Chad, I'd probably be dead. Even you, Tophat, have saved me in some sort of way.
Just do me a favor, you guys. Sometime within the week, tell someone you really care about exactly how much you love them. Please?
You'll make someone's day a lot better, and life a lot brighter. I promise...
Spread the love, baby. <3