Rain

Riku's picture

I love the rain...

But it stops me from taking photographs outside.

:(

As TotalGeek will tell you, I am obsessed with my camera. In fact, I would venture to say that I'm more obsessed with my camera than he his with NPH or Doctor Who.

Which is pretty significant.

Now I find that I've got all of this great stuff. But I don't know what to do with it. A little while ago I wrote down a plethora of photoshoot ideas, but hmmm. I dunno. Maybe I should do something simpler.

I've also been playing a lot of pokemon lately. Mostly SoulSilver and Yellow. (Yes, I know. Super-old game versus new release)

And I dunno. I felt like updating with something for no real reason.

Oh, and I'm starting to feel lonely again. I think it's because it's spring and it's like everyone is dating someone or something. Well, everyone except for me. I don't even know if I want to be because, pressure. I don't want to feel pressured to do something I don't want to do. I wish I could date someone with zero expectations. We could just be kids together and be honest with each other and not worry about what other people think we should be doing or how we've been told to think things should be done. We wouldn't have to call each other anything because everyone assumes things upon the word "boyfriend" and the names of things wouldn't matter just how -we- feel and what -our- needs would be.

Er yeah. But there isn't anyone I really like. I mean, I get a few tiny tiny crushes here and there but I can't tell if they're actual crushes or I just want to be friends with them. That happens to me a lot. Nothing ever goes anywhere though, at least, not for me. owo

Comments

TotalGeek42's picture

Well.. that's the way a good

Well.. that's the way a good relationship should work anyways. I mean... that's what everybody wants, really.

And I reallllly doubt you're more obsessed with your camera than I am with doctor who at the moment. I've seen the same preview like 30 billion times and I still run over to the tv anytime it's on. xD

albeit... you are really, really, really obsessed.. >>

"Assets, assets..."

"Well I've got a banana, and in a pinch you could put up some shelves..."

"pretty pleaseeee w/ icecream and rainbows and and... NPH wearing nothing but Doctor Who-themed underwear on top :P ??" -holahaveamuffin -- Way to my heart

Riku's picture

Maybe that's what everyone

Maybe that's what everyone wants, but people usually have expectations for things anyway. I feel like my whole not-liking-to-be-touched thing and my rule list (things such as, don't touch here and here and here, and don't touch me at all without making sure I'm aware you're about to first, and this and that and yaddah yaddah) would make people not want to bother.

And I dunno. I'm pretty sure I'd take it everywhere with me if it were practical. Half of the time I just use it for the sake of using it even if all of the pictures don't come out because I have a DSLR. XD And I wouldn't talk about anything else if like, people weren't sick of hearing about it/ understood what I was talking about. (I usually lose people around when I start talking about ISOs or something.)

TotalGeek42's picture

Well I mean.. if somebody

Well I mean.. if somebody really liked you they'd be willing to put up with that. That is, as I said, the point of a relationship.

I don't think you have enough faith in what people would be willing to put up with, really. At least, the right person.. maybe just the main issue is that you haven't found the right person.

"Assets, assets..."

"Well I've got a banana, and in a pinch you could put up some shelves..."

"pretty pleaseeee w/ icecream and rainbows and and... NPH wearing nothing but Doctor Who-themed underwear on top :P ??" -holahaveamuffin -- Way to my heart

Riku's picture

I don't want it to feel like

I don't want it to feel like someone is just putting up with me. I'd get guilty and insecure and probably do something I'm not comfortable with. :/ I guess I could work that stuff out if I ever got that far though. But usually it ends with "I like you". :P

TotalGeek42's picture

Okay... put up with wasn't

Okay... put up with wasn't what I meant. :P
You will some day though!

"Assets, assets..."

"Well I've got a banana, and in a pinch you could put up some shelves..."

"pretty pleaseeee w/ icecream and rainbows and and... NPH wearing nothing but Doctor Who-themed underwear on top :P ??" -holahaveamuffin -- Way to my heart

jeff's picture

Well...

The thing to remember is that all relationships fail, until one doesn't. But, yeah, I agree with TotalGeek (except for the Dr. Who love), you're just describing a good relationship, not anything magical or unobtainable, unless you believe it is.

Also, one hand umbrella, one hand camera. What am I missing?

---
"Wanting to be someone else is a waste of the person you are." - Kurt Cobain

Riku's picture

It feels kind of

It feels kind of unobtainable, because most of the people I know in my age group have no idea how to handle their emotions and are very concerned by expectations and whatnot. Everyone always wants things before they're sure what to expect or what the other person is like. It's like going into a movie with expectations and then complaining that you didn't like it because it's not what you thought it would be, even if it was a good movie. I don't really expect people not to do that. But I feel like everyone is going to want things from me that I can't offer.

Oh, and because I'm super-picky and every time I really like someone they don't like me back. So I can't even get far enough to figure out how possible all that other stuff I mentioned is. Some people will date anyone they find marginally attractive, but I have like, a checklist. :P Meh, I'll manage eventually.

Rainy days are difficult because A. I have a DSLR. I need two hands to operate it. One to focus/zoom and one to press buttons. And B. low light + wind = blury photos. The last time I tried to take pictures on a day this cloudy nothing came out.