I got up this morning, and I got ready for school. Then I did a routine check of here. In the morning, usually I just check last night's journal comments, and reply to PM's.
This morning, I had a lot to do.
So I logged on, then saw it was already 7:30.
Crap. Time to go.
I didn't even have time to read ANYTHING.
I was all like, "crap. The next time I have to check Oasis is in 13 hours at the earliest."
It turned out to be closer to 14.
You wouldn't believe how hard I swam today. I did both school and club, and both were harder than usual. And I didn't bring enough food. I didn't have time.
Then, at club, I asked my swim coach what can I do to possibly help get myself faster.
She said "do what you already do, but harder."
"Harder? How can I go harder?"
"Double your dryland, sprint the sets at practice, and start running. 5 miles, 3 times a week."
Well, I'm glad, because this means this will help me get faster.
But it also means more work.
My parents tell me there is such a thing as overtraining, to the point where it actually is bad for you, but my coach doesn't think I'm hitting that, and I'll trust her, because she's been a coach for a LONG LONG time, and before that, she was a ref at meets for a LONG LONG time.
She knows everything about swimming.
Now, I want to squeeze EVERY LAST DROP out of my childhood. I want it to be high intensity. That doesn't mean I'll never find times to relax, I really do need to relax sometimes.
But, I REALLY REALLY want to be a VERY good swimmer someday. And that means tons of work. Work, work, work.
However, I also don't want this to interfere with school, as I have an adulthood to think about too. So I also work hard to get good grades in school.
And, I also want to find time to just be a kid. There's plenty of time for that on the weekends though. The weekdays are the problem.
And, I'm, so far, managing all of this pretty well. I'm going to both school swimming and club swimming, doing dryland, doing homework, piano, and all of the daily tasks I need to do.
And I don't think all of this will push me over the edge at the current rate.
But, my schedule doesn't leave a whole lot of breathing room. It's pretty well crammed from 6:30 AM to 9:30 PM, when I post on here. I don't have a single bored moment on the weekdays.
But I never know what will push me over the brink. My coach has told me to do more work. I can pencil that in...
I'm not doing club swimming Tuesday and Thursday. I'm just too tired.
I can do the running then, along with one day on the weekend. I can do the extra dryland late at night, and of course I can fit in extra swimming on the weekend and AT swimming.
But, I have to keep in mind, high school starts next year. I'm already taking 3 honors classes, honors chem, honors Alg.2/trig., honors english.
Each of those is WAY more homework than I already have.
That, along with the hours and hours swimming sucks up, is going to be difficult.
But I think I can do it.
Because, right now, I have to go to the accelerated program all the way across the school district. That bus ride takes almost an hour.
I get home at like 4 most of the time.
My brother can drive me next year, and I'll get home at 2:20, which is almost 2 extra hours of worktime.
I THINK I can fit it all in.
I HOPE I can.
Because, if I can't, the choice is obvious.
What I want to do, and what I have to do.
And I want swimming so so badly.