Calmed down

Dracofangxxx's picture

I swear, if things ever get that bad again, I will run away D: <
Luckily, a few VERY caring friends kept me sane. That whole thing was sort of embarrassing.

I'm reading this book called "Girl, Interrupted". It was made into a movie, too. Anybody heard of it?
I really like it.
It connects to me alot. It's about girls with mental health problems.

I'm gonna try and use excersize as a way of keeping myself calm. So, I'm trying to put together a trance/heavy techno playlist to help me run. Maybe a bit of heavy rock in there. Anyways, I'm trying to get motivated and healthy- Especially if I decide to run away! I'll have to be healthy enough to book it and to be able to get far enough away...

I'd probably bring my camera, and take pictures of what I see. How cool that would be... I'd keep my journal written in every day, and it would just be so much fun. Besides the starving, the cold, and the possibility of getting arrested or kidnapped P: I'd probably bring the knife in the bathroom with me. I'm not bad at hand-to-hand ;D

I'm gonna just stay calm for now, plan out what I'll do instead of being spontaneous, and then if the time comes again where I seriously am a danger to myself in this house, I'll get out ASAP. I wonder how far I could get? Should I bring my bike? Or would that mean I'd have to wear a helmet all the time... That's alot of weight :/ and space.

I've always wanted to do something like this. Leave and take care of myself for a while... It'd be like being a nomad or something. I wish I could get a partner to go with me. It would be so much easier that way. To get money, I'd probably just ask random people if they needed me to do some odd jobs for them. I don't look menacing or dangerous or anything. I wonder how that'd work...

Ohhh, but it's all dreams. I don't think I could do it.

If push comes to shove, I'm gonna try though.

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jeff's picture

Hmm...

I forget how that movie ends or anything, but should a girl with mental problems read a book about a girl with mental health problems as your way to escape from reality? ;-)

I wasn't too concerned the other night, since you couldn't do something someone suggested because you didn't have your parents permission. That didn't seem like the thought process of someone ready to run away or kill themselves. ;-)

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"Wanting to be someone else is a waste of the person you are." - Kurt Cobain

Dracofangxxx's picture

I probably shouldn't XD I

I probably shouldn't XD

I wouldn't be able to get a ride otherwise. I don't believe I could physically walk all the way to their house either. If I am going to run, I'm going to do it when my parents aren't going to know. They don't exactly see me most of the day, so it'd be easy that way. I wouldn't want to run and have them know EXACTLY where I was... What's the point of that? They'd bring me right back home ASAP.
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You're twisted and perverted. I like that in a person.

ShowMeLove's picture

Girl Interrupted

I just watched that, like, a week ago. I've watched it a few times, but I've never read the original book/memoir. I heard the writer wasn't too pleased with the way they changed somethings and made the movie super melodramatic.

I remember liking it the first time I watched it, though. It's kinda sad to watch it now though because of Brittany Murphy :/

and now even sadder knowing about that her husband died a few days ago :/ :/

Anyways...