Have you every thought, "I want a sex change...or do I?"
I'm a 21 year old bisexual FTM. Why do I admit to being FTM (female to male trans gendered)? Though it would be infinitely more fun to fool everyone into thinking I'm a straight up man, its not as feasible in real life. Though I can get away with it because I am 5'10", athletic, mostly flat chested with a muscular build, my fiance does not like the full on guy look. He likes the look of an androgenous person and so do I. He calls me an Androgyne. For the better part of my life (since childhood) I played with the boys and competed with them. When everyone was diverging to their gender role at puberty I followed suite, only to realize my girly parts didnt fit the expectations of the boys locker room. Before I was even capapble of sexual arousal I had a boyfriend. From age 15 to 18 he clung to me as if I was the only person who would ever like him. It was a typical teen relationship for a year and a half, then I got fed up with purses, skirts and dresses (again) and came out to him. "Hey, I wish I was a boy (no response). I want to be a boy (confused response). I'm going to get my hair cut (insert response of Perhaps I misunderstood what you are getting at so now i will remark, "But you look good with long hair.") And finally I say: I want to screw you with dildos because I still like boys, even though i want to be a boy (...silence...no problem). And helped with my transition into manhood. I was always reaching to be a male, never comfortable with myself, until I dumped old boyfriend, did some exploring, had two girlfriends and met new boyfriend.
New boyfriend does not approve of gender changes. New boyfriend has no moral obligations against them, but he reminded me the surgeries are imperfect. I told him I knew that and I was waiting to get one because they may get better (like cheese with time). But he's mad me feel so special as a preoperative trans person. He tells me he likes the androgeny, it attracted him to me. He likes that i might be female but think like male. we connec because of androgeny. He calls me androgye. The wonders of living as an androgyne- a dual sexed organism (given that i have natural girly part and prosthetic boy parts) have made my life more interesting. Admittedly I don't get to run around with straight up gay totally hot twinks, but I bi guys are into and let me tell you, New boyfriend is ten times better than a plethora of hot gay twinks. ;)