need help!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

undead_poet's picture

i dont know what i am doing in life. people tell me i am a sadistic asshole. because i find plesure in emotionally hurting others. which is totallly true. but i think it has to do with my past. iwas always put down by others. and i use it as a defense mechanism. im depressed with my life and somdays i think of suicide as a way out of all the shit i deal with in life.

undead_poet's picture

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plz help if you can. advice needed and welcomed thank you
~so sayth the undead, HEED HIM WELL!

fox333's picture

Maybe you want to see

Maybe you want to see someone about that? I know that is my answer to everything but, it can help.

A doubtful friend is worse than a certain enemy. Let a man be one thing or the other, and we then know how to meet him.
Aesop

Dracofangxxx's picture

Instead of finding pleasure

Instead of finding pleasure in hurting others, maybe I can help you to learn to find pleasure in making them feel good?
We should talk more. I might be able to help you... because I went through your same thing :)
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You're twisted and perverted. I like that in a person.

jeff's picture

Well...

I don't think being a sadistic asshole can be forgiven by your past, only resolved by addressing your past. People having a reason to do something doesn't make it justified.

If you're depressed with life, then why keep doing the same patterns that aren't helping you? life isn't an external thing, but the realization of the choices you make every day.

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"Wanting to be someone else is a waste of the person you are." - Kurt Cobain