I've had a headache all week.
It won't go away.
Even after I got 10 hours of sleep last night and the night before, it keeps coming back.
Not as bad today as it was yesterday, and yesterday wasn't as bad as the whole week preceding.
I've been exhausted. When I get up in the mornings, my first ritual is to see if the bags under my eyes have grown or shrunk.
I have to keep getting good grades though. If I don't, next year, for the first quarter, my mom won't let me swim.
Now that would kill me. I've gotten better, at being less, I don't know if I would call it lazy, but I've found more ways to fit both school and swimming into one day.
The weekends are always nice.
On Friday morning, I got up and took a shower, then I all of a sudden realized everything I had to do that day. Only the thought of the weekend kept me from crumpling like a paper cup. I fell overwhelmed, thinking of what I have to do every day.
But, it's slowly working out better.
However, slight problem. There's this girl, who is like obsessed with me. She's always asking for hugs, and pictures, and the like.
And she's very nice. But I hardly ever see her.
Just in the hallways.
Anyway, she asked me, on Friday, "do you like me?". Oh Gawd, I'd been dreading this moment for over a year. I stalled, told her to let me sleep on it.
However, I can't avoid her tomorrow. She'll seek me out.
If I answer yes, I'll have between 1 second and 1 day before she asks the rather more dangerous "will you go out with me" question.
If I say no, it'll break her heart, which will in turn break mine.
Then, I could tell her I'm gay. I REALLY don't want to. I've done it to girls obsessed with me before, and a lot of times it's a bad deal. Like they think it's an excuse, or they think "they made me gay."
What should I say?
Should I say yes, but then answer that my parents won't let me on the date question?