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swimmerguy's picture

I've had a headache all week.
It won't go away.
Even after I got 10 hours of sleep last night and the night before, it keeps coming back.
Not as bad today as it was yesterday, and yesterday wasn't as bad as the whole week preceding.

I've been exhausted. When I get up in the mornings, my first ritual is to see if the bags under my eyes have grown or shrunk.
I have to keep getting good grades though. If I don't, next year, for the first quarter, my mom won't let me swim.
Now that would kill me. I've gotten better, at being less, I don't know if I would call it lazy, but I've found more ways to fit both school and swimming into one day.
The weekends are always nice.
On Friday morning, I got up and took a shower, then I all of a sudden realized everything I had to do that day. Only the thought of the weekend kept me from crumpling like a paper cup. I fell overwhelmed, thinking of what I have to do every day.
But, it's slowly working out better.

However, slight problem. There's this girl, who is like obsessed with me. She's always asking for hugs, and pictures, and the like.
And she's very nice. But I hardly ever see her.
Just in the hallways.
Anyway, she asked me, on Friday, "do you like me?". Oh Gawd, I'd been dreading this moment for over a year. I stalled, told her to let me sleep on it.
However, I can't avoid her tomorrow. She'll seek me out.
If I answer yes, I'll have between 1 second and 1 day before she asks the rather more dangerous "will you go out with me" question.
If I say no, it'll break her heart, which will in turn break mine.
Then, I could tell her I'm gay. I REALLY don't want to. I've done it to girls obsessed with me before, and a lot of times it's a bad deal. Like they think it's an excuse, or they think "they made me gay."

Mmmmmmmmm...
What should I say?
Should I say yes, but then answer that my parents won't let me on the date question?

Comments

Lehcure's picture

I think if she has been

I think if she has been obsessed with you for a year.. and you tell her you're gay.. then maybe she won't be surprised because she's been stalking you for a whole 365 days in which she probably got some hint that you're not straight?
Or, maybe she'll go into shock and denial :P
I'm sure she'll get over it whichever it is.
Wouldn't say tell her yes though..unless you emphasize you like her only as a FRIEND.
If you don't emphasize the friend part, that's false hope, and it kills
Maybe put yourself in her shoes, what would you want him (the straight guy) to tell you?

ferrets's picture

wellll

there are already persons who think your fakong the gayness. if you say yes then use the perants excuse it will boost everyone thinking you are straightness by 457689%

"...I find it kinda funny,I find it kinda sad, that the dreams where i am dieing are the best I've ever had..." -gary jules

jeff's picture

Uhh...

Weren't you already outed at school? Sounds like there's no danger in her knowing...

Also, the "made me gay" thing is usually related to girls you had sex with. The joke being, the sex was so bad, they rather sleep with men now. So, not sure how telling someone you're gay that you never even expressed interest in or dated would get to use that line.

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"Wanting to be someone else is a waste of the person you are." - Kurt Cobain

swimmerguy's picture

That's the thing!

I'm supposed to be outed at school! But, it's gotten to a point where I don't know who knows or not now. What REALLY scares me is I don't know if Uber Christian, probably one of my very best friends, I don't know if he knows, and I'm too scared to ask him. (In case he's actually a raging homophobe)
I'm actually rather ashamed. I came out to a lot of people, then all of a sudden everything just sat there. I haven't personally told everyone, and I don't know who's forgot or something. I would answer truthfully, if someone asks me, but recently, I've been acting straight, saying straight comments, etc. It's become a huge mess. I think the only thing for it is to come out to everyone again, which sucks.

And these girls were actually serious, and were misinformed to think that you could make someone gay, and they thought that being with them could make someone gay. Or maybe use that as an excuse, I don't know.
Anyway, I don't know HOW they thought that, but hey, what do you expect? They're girls.

No one escapes from life alive

jeff's picture

Well...

Don't come out, then. Just be out. Also, if you were straight, and a girl liked you, you wouldn't be under any obligation to give her the response that she wants.

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"Wanting to be someone else is a waste of the person you are." - Kurt Cobain

hellonwheels's picture

hmmm....

i would just tell the girl you're not interested in a relationship right now...and go from there...that way, you don't out yourself further to the school, save yourself the awkward confrontation w/ said religious friend....good luck man.

its weird...this week, its weird as hell...i have energy i don't normally have. it's weird...been riding alot, worked a ton on the trails the otehr day, and am still rolling after like 48 horus straight. lol.

Mental wounds not healing, driving me insane, i'm goin' off the rails on a crazy train- the ozzman

Dracofangxxx's picture

I say tell her straight up

I say tell her straight up "Yo. I'm gay. Do you have a penis? Nottttt intereseted." *snap snap hairflip*
and then walk away :D

If she's creeping you out, that is >_>

But seriously. Don't even THINK about saying yes, because you know exactly where that will lead. I'd rather have a straight "No" than a bit of a tease. Because getting teased SUCKS.
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You're twisted and perverted. I like that in a person.

elph's picture

I suspect he'll do just this...

...but far more sympathetically. He'll let her know the facts, but in no way hurtful. A real challenge, but I'd guess that he's up to it...

This evening my sorceress says that the headaches will be banished...