this shit needs TO DIE NOW!!

really confused's picture

i sit hear in my panties and oh wait i have a FUCKING COCK!! so of course it does'nt fit right. seriously if it was a person i would FUCKING KILL IT!!(assuming that all other "manly" characteristics were embodied by this person) it sucks cuz it bunches up in weird areas and support is lacking like half the time and so i have to A) adjust in public or (what actually happens) B) go to the nearest restroom and adjust there. it never seems to be small enough either. right now id be happy without it even if i didn't have a "vag" instead (although breasts would be nice) or at least it was SMALLER BUT I CAN'T DO ANYTHING!!! FUCK!!!!! god i feel so helpless...

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Wolfcry's picture

Hey, if I could take it away

Hey, if I could take it away from you, I would(just to add it to mine to boos my self esteem...) and you wouldn't have to worry about it...

"My ear should catch your voice; my eye, your eye, My tongue should catch your tongue, sweet melody, My tongue your tongue were the world mine, And I will sing that they shall hear: That I am not, I am not afraid, I am not afraid!" -- Were The World

ferrets's picture

scissors?

and tylonel of course

"...I find it kinda funny,I find it kinda sad, that the dreams where i am dieing are the best I've ever had..." -gary jules

elph's picture

OMG...

...I'd suggest something more surgical. Or, weren't you serious?

really confused's picture

well..

if it could manifest as a person it would be easier to transistion
Love,peace, and, DAFT PUNK, Alisa =D

elph's picture

I'm Still Having Difficulty...

...but are you not able to enjoy its multifunctional properties?

really confused's picture

i am but it still royally pisses me off

i only use it to masturbate the rest of the time (like 99%) it just annoys me
Love,peace, and, DAFT PUNK, Alisa =D

elph's picture

OK... That's Clear... Up to a Point...

You have a penis (which you feel is an error), and frequent (implied) masturbation, presumably, is accompanied by the same benefits that are appreciated by all pubescent males, et al. (i.e., orgasm and ejaculation).

But... for me, what you really want continues to remain elusive. On the surface, you would appear to have the requisites for fulfilling every teen's dream --- gay, or not gay!

Maybe this will help: during your moments of libidinal euphoria, do you fantasize that you are simultaneously instrumental in augmenting a similar libidinal fulfillment in another? If so, is the sex of that imagined individual important to you --- or is it inconsequential?

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In another post today, you mentioned that your father was beginning to understand. To what end?

really confused's picture

...

i don't masturbate often (cuz it is contradictory in my mind but it is a release from life for a little while and i would do it more if i had a vagina). i don't really understand the question but here we go. when i have my fantasies i see me as the female giving pleasure to the man or woman and receiving it as well (very romantic basically) so i guess it is important the person i see as me what their gender is. did i answer it?
Love,peace, and, DAFT PUNK, Alisa =D

elph's picture

I Think You've Done Your Best

I'm truly out of my class in trying to understand your situation.

By no means am I suggesting any lack of truthfulness on your part! It's that I feel I cannot contribute anything beyond what you've been able to work out so far on your own.

I do not know what level of competence is held by the counsellors with whom you've discussed matching your body to the mental image you have of your proper sex. However, I'd strongly urge you to discuss these issues with one who specializes in such matters --- and who has a proven track record and is willing to provide references to satisfied patients with whom you could speak...

Best of luck!

really confused's picture

yeah but i would need my parents for therapy

and my parents say they are trying to get me in touch with others who are/were trans and professionals
Love,peace, and, DAFT PUNK, Alisa =D