My sister sent me this longish message today. Most of it was about her bachelorette party. She wants to go to Niagara Falls and do some attractions including that crazy river ride that costs 59 BUCKS! The thing is I just don't have the money. It's like she thinks I'm made of money and I can just throw it around like that. Seriously. She knows the situation at home and how tight money is, or at least I think she does. I'm positive she does. AND she most definitely knows that I don't have a job right now, so where exactly am I supposed to pull that money out from? The magical money tree in the backyard?!
I'm not mad as much as I know how that ^^ sounds. I'm just frustrated at the way she's treated me throughout this whole process. I'm just expected to have the money like she does. From the beginning when she sent me the message saying that the Bridesmaid dress was gong to cost $200 and did I "have the money to pay for it?"
And, God, I know how much this means to her. I could most see it in her last message when she was describing what she plans to do for the bachelorette party. She sounded so excited..or her words on the Interweb made her seem really excited, anyways. I felt happy for her. I FEEL happy for her.
It's just that I don't have the money to spend like she does. I wanna do it, I just don't feel comfortable spending so much along with all the other mandatory costs (shoes, nails, makeup, hair, presents, ect). Holy fuck, Lady, I DON'T HAVE A JOB. And I can't borrow from our parents when they're borrowing from ME. Again.
Anyways, I just don't know what to do or what to say. I'll feel bad if I don't get back to her tonight...or, I mean, before I go to bed this morning. What the hell do I do?