A couple of days ago my sister messaged me saying that she's thinking about going to Wonderland for her party instead. I guess because it's easier on everybody's wallets. I don't mind and I certainly prefer the price point, but at the same time I feel kinda bad because she'd probably much rather go to Niagara and do what she originally planned. But I can't really help it and apparently some of the other people are having money issues too. So at least it's not just me, for all the friggin judging I feel them do to me.
I still feel like I'm going to feel out of place during this day out. I don't even really know who's going to be there...and I'm SO not like most people. I'm so shy and awkward in most social situations. Especially with people I don't know or when family is around. I don't know if anybody can relate or understand this, but when I'm around a lot of my family I feel like they expect me to act a certain way so I kinda do. Like they all see me as the same shy little naive girl I was 10+ years ago, so I just kinda act that way still. I don't know, it's sorta weird. Hah.
Plus, I don't drink and apparently after we have this day out we're going back to her place for "drinks".....umm, gonna be SO out of place. Maybe my nephew's girlfriend will be at this thing too...then maybe I can kinda cling to her even though she drinks. Haha.