Summer. But also some ranting.

carmen143's picture

So this whole summer thing is pretty okay.

I like getting to do what I want for a whole day. Alone. It's very enjoyable.

But, some days I want to hang out with a girl who I could call my girlfriend.

It's the only thing that I think about. At any given time, 60% of my brain is being used to think about girls, 20% is thinking about food, and the other 20% is thinking about all the stresses that are currently in my life.

Every time I see a movie, read a book, or listen to a great song I think how I wish I could share it with someone who would appreciate it.

I think of all the movies I want to watch with my girlfriend, all the songs I love that I could make a mix of for my girlfriend...

Now the only problem is finding said girlfriend.

I can't go to Pride in Columbus because I have some family graduation party to attend.

My sister was going to take me and it would have been fantastic.

Alas, my plans are ruined. That was pretty much my only chance to find my dream girl...

One more thing to rant about. I'm going on a family vacation this summer with the side of the family I'm not out to.

My mom told me flat out that I have to watch what I say. No comments about actresses being hot or funny jokes are being gay... I already know I shouldn't say them but still, being told not to do so is such a drag.

I wanna have fun on the trip but if I can't be myself... I dunno.

You might ask, Why not come out to that side of the family?

Well, I can't do that because if I tell them out right, it will have worse repercussions that making an under handed comment.

It's a lose lose situation for everyone involved.

Well, this ended up longer than I thought it would be.

Thanks for reading this if you got to the end. lol.


will's picture

*Pat on my back*

I got to the end! lol It's not that long anyways. :) OMG, I can totally relate with the imagine-sharing-with-someone thing! I do it all the time, but I usually can't find the right person to share it with :( I'm hopeful though. I'm sure you'll find that special girl too cuz you are sweet and awesome!

At the end of the day, what matters is not what you have, but who you have become.

carmen143's picture

I'm glad...

That part didn't sound totally lame. Lol.

"I love you 1, a 2, a 3 shoobee-doo. I love you 4, that's more than I can afford. And I can tell some day that I'm gunna' say the truth. I love you 5!" - NeverShoutNever! :)