i dont want to talk to her anymore. she doesnt seem to get where im coming from. she doesnt see what ive been seeing in her recently. everybody is telling me that i should just stop talking to her. that nothing good is going to come out of us talking. Becky was pissed off when she found out that Christina made me cry again, for like the third time in a week. becky told me she still has christina's number, and i told her i didnt care what she did with it. i honestly dont. but she hasnt done anything.
last thing i told her was that i hated her sometimes. and it is true.
i feel a bit lost now. like, i know its over, but i have all the love i was giving to christina, and no one to give it to. so its kinda just yeah. becky's been getting most of it. and i seem to be going to her with all my problems. so she's been just overjoyed, i dont know if i told you guys, but she kinda digs me still. even after i left her for christina 2 months ago. which i feel pretty bad about.
she's there for me though, whenever i need her. and she makes me feel better.