ShowMeLove's picture

Well, I'm back to being annoyed by the Bachelorette party business. My sister's on my back about going. Again. Because it's coming up soon. I told her that I couldn't go because I don't have the money. Now she's back to saying that she'll go somewhere else if that's the case and that I have to come! What the hell?! Am I supposed to pull the money out of my ass or something? I get that she's excited, but it's like she thinks I'm making it up and that I really have the money and I'm lying.

I don't even know why she wants me to come so badly. It's like, I'm not like them..her and her friends. I'm not outgoing and I hate social shit with family and/or strangers. If I'm left alone, like I was at the shower (for the most part) I'm okay, but I hate making conversation with older people that I have nothing in common with. I sure as hell don't want want to talk about me and what I'm doing, cause, shit, I've got nothing going on. Just finished that prep class and yeah...I don't know where the hell I'm going next. I basically have no motivation to do anything. I'm in a rut, I guess you would say.

My personal life...well, I just sit at home all day. Though I do like to get out once a day. But, even then, it's just to the library to get some movies/magazines/books/CDs, so I can sit on my ass some more. Or else I go with my mom to the grocery store. Then come home and watch a bunch of TV with my parents until they go to bed at 10:00PM. Then I go to my room and spend the next, Honest to God, 6 to 7 hours doing a combination of using the computer, watching some TV, and playing video games, then I go to bed at around 4:30AM. Pathetic and very, very lame.

I have absolutely NOTHING to talk about.

I don't even have the motivation to look up the volunteer stuff that will was nice enough to gather for me. Thanks, btw. It will come in use at some point, I'm positive!

Anyways, I've gotten off topic. I don't want to go to the party and hang out and be a fucking burden because I don't have the money or I don't want to go on a certain ride or whatever. I'd so much rather be left out of all this. Oh, yeah, after we do whatever we do for her party, we're supposed to go back to her house and drink. Need I remind you that I DON'T DRINK?! What use am I there? Not to mention my picky eating habits which is going to be hell for me during this entire time. I'll be hungry and/or picked on about it AS PER USUAL. Fun.

This is all adds up to: I'm going to spend the rest of my life totally and utterly alone. Weee!

If you made it through all that *KUDOS*


FragileThings's picture

Well if need be you can

Well if need be you can always talk to me. I don't drink either, despite my icon. Nor do I partay since I don't ever have Monet. He's dead. This makes things difficult.

And you're never alone. When you think you're alone I can guarantee you that someone is thinking of you. Someone is wishing they were able to tell you how much they love you. Someone is thinking how much fun it was to be with you last time. Someone is planning a way to surprise their bestest best friend: you.

And if that doesn't help, the CIA is probably watching you too.


FragileThings's picture

Come to think of it that was

Come to think of it that was a lie... all I do is drink and party.

Sorry, me matey.

But I really don't have money, if it helps any. Not a pound to speak of.


ShowMeLove's picture

Yeah, about that...

I highly doubt anyone in the world is thinking of me. There's not much to think about me. love me? I doubt that anyone does. The last time fun was had with me was probably a very long time ago. As I've said, I stay indoors most of the time. I have no best friends or, really, any close friends at all, I left them all behind. Everybody moved away (including myself) and we all just sorta grew apart.

But I appreciate the sentiment. :)

FragileThings's picture

Well in that case I shall

Well in that case I shall make a point to think of ye and love ye and become friends with ye.


hellonwheels's picture

social situations suck anyways...

im sure it will be ok ash.

Mental wounds not healing, driving me insane, i'm goin' off the rails on a crazy train- the ozzman

ShowMeLove's picture


I think it will. Hopefully.

"Why is it that as a society, we are more comfortable seeing two men holding guns than holding hands?"