Sometimes I can be a incredibly destructive human in the sense that I damage people psychologically. I do it this way because it leaves a mark for a long time, and when I'm hurt I use my knowledge to hurt people by breaking their hearts as mine has been broken in the past. I have heard that the best warriors attack the heart, and over the years I've earned how to attack peoples hearts.
This evening while I was out with my girlfriend, some guys told her she should lose some weight. I wanted to beat the shit out of them. I wanted to psychologically torment them, beat them, and leave them with scars on their faces that would last a lifetime so that they'd never forget how I imasculated them, humiliated them, and broke them. I hoped that my voice would ring through their ears until the day they died. I can be quite cruel and morbid in my mind at times.
My idea of the ultimate heroine is a woman that anally rapes rapists, and cruel men. I secretly want to be a vigilante that commits these acts against the fucking assholes I feel deserve it. Perhaps not anally rape all of them, but destroy them psychologically. My father has this tendency. He is the most ingenious psychologist and he uses his skill to help and disable people. I fear I have his negative tendencies as well as his positive ones as well.