I always forget how in the closet i really am, because I don't think of myself as anything but gay. It's like I'm ready to be out but I don't want to go through the whole damn process and drama of actually coming out. I just want people to know. Lazy.
And now everything in my life is going pretty great, I've been recruited by a college for sports in probably one the most gay friendly areas in the world(aka the bay). I don't have to worry about senior year accept getting B's, and I have a 30 ish % scholarship so paying for college is going to be easier.(still hard, mind you, but easier)
I've basically decided in my head that I'm going to keep quite about anything gay related to the team until i get a feel for the team(college team), so about another year. But I really want to be out at my high school. I don't know how to resolve that. Like I said earlier I'm not big on some grand pronouncement announcing I'm gay, I just want people to know.
It's my senior year right? And I've already got college figured out. I should at least make out with someone before I go to college. I mean, seriously. I've had come-ons from gay girls before too, but I haven't been able to meet any gay girls my age who aren't really freaking weird. Why is that?