Oh pshaw

swimmerguy's picture

I won't take much of your time, but I'll tell the quick story of why I've been away.
My dad discovered I was gay through this site, and I thought that was okay.

Well, he discovered why because I was on my laptop. My mom had taken away my desktop and laptop computer in a fit of rage I won't bother to explain.
A few weeks later I asked for my laptop back, and got it. This was about 3 months ago.
And the way the childblocks worked on my laptop was that it told me the site was innapropriate, but I could send a message of why it shouldn't be innapropriate to my dad, and it would let me through, then he would decide whether or not it was innapropriate later.
Well, he found I was gay when I gave him the notification of why this site shouldn't be innapropriate.

And so we entered a standoff. He didn't want to disallow it, but he didn't enable it either. And so I was always having to send new notifications while he decided.
Then he decided 2 months ago, by shutting down the laptop, and installing a new child block, so I now have 2. This one, you send the notification, and it doesn't let you through. So I go through one that sends me right through to the other impassable one.
And he still refused to okay the site, so I couldn't enter.

We both avoided talking about it. Obviously, he's a reasonable guy, and knows that there's no reason for this place to be blocked. But, he also doesn't like that I'm gay, inside. So he just wants to block this site so he can forget about it, then pretend I'm straight.

And I didn't have the nerve to bring it up, though I pity him for having to deal with me...

And so, I promised sir matthew (ferrets) yesterday that I would talk to him today.
But, before I could, I remembered I'd never asked for my desktop computer back, and that it doesn't have the same blocks. It has other, more lenient ones.
So, today, I asked my mom for the powerbox to it back, and reconnected it.
So, we'll see how long I'm back for, in case my dad discovers me again. I hope I can muster the nerve to be stronger next time, and I'm glad, because I'll need this site for stress relief come the school year (during high school swim season, I'll be having 3 seperate swim practices a day, 3 honors classes, piano lessons, dryland and all my usual crap. I'll need a place to vent.)
So, I'm REALLY excited! I say hello to all that I remember and all new peeps!


ferrets's picture

hia :D

hope you can stick around this time hun.

More people have been slaughtered in the name of religion than for any other single reason. That, my friends, that is true perversion.
-Harvey Milk

elph's picture

Oh My... Oh My...

It is so wonderful to have you back... I say this before even reading what you've written!

You have been sorely missed.

I'll now go back and read your story... I hope there are no spoilers!

elph's picture

Oh Oh...

So... I gather that the ridiculously-well-behaved swimmerguy is still obliged to operate clandestinely :(

This time with help from an unsuspecting ally: mom!

Please... don't get caught!

jeff's picture

Welcome back...

Hopefully your dad will realize he's better off with a gay son who has a support network than a pretend straight son who's more alone.

"Wanting to be someone else is a waste of the person you are." - Kurt Cobain

625539's picture

Glad to see you're back : D

Glad to see you're back : D

Dracofangxxx's picture



You are beautiful, in every single way <3