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centerfielder08's picture

its gotten awful again. and in efforts not to revert back to the Oasis member i was 1.5 years ago....what the hell do i do instead?

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centerfielder08's picture

wheres jessen when i need

wheres jessen when i need 'im?

jacjessen90's picture

babe, i'm right here!

sorry, had to go to the office...what's up? talk to me!

"to live a day alone, only THAT would be torture! An hour without you, only THAT would be death!" ~gomez and morticia addams
"look at him! i would kill for him! i would die for him! either way what bliss!"~gomez addams

hellonwheels's picture

the member you were 1.5 yrs ago?

what?

Mental wounds not healing, driving me insane, i'm goin' off the rails on a crazy train- the ozzman

Splash's picture

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Suicidal. That's how he was 1.5 years ago.

The best thing I can think of to say right now is that you are no longer the same person you were then. You may not feel any different, but you are, at least slightly. Rule of life. Just because you feel awful again does NOT erase the last year and a half. When I'm depressed I'm sometimes afraid I'm going to spiral back down to being suicidal no matter how hard I try, but I don't think that's true anymore.

I know you're on medication and have people around you who can (hopefully) help. That's good. Reach out as much as you can. It's ok. Don't go giving up, now. :-)

*hugs*

~~~ the voice of your eyes is deeper than all roses ~ e e cummings ~~~

centerfielder08's picture

Thanks , Splash *hugs*. i

Thanks , Splash *hugs*. i miss you a lot.

there are just so many changes going on in my life right now i sometimes have trouble seeing into a less complicated future where i wont be doubting myself and counting down my days

centerfielder08's picture

it just...gah.

it just...gah.

hellonwheels's picture

fielder, i know...believe me...

i do. I was supposed to start my meds again yesterday, but failed to. been suicidal for two months now. no sleep, no eating, drunk. all that shit. i know what you are going through sofia/ eli. let me know if you want to talk, i am always here.

hell

Mental wounds not healing, driving me insane, i'm goin' off the rails on a crazy train- the ozzman

centerfielder08's picture

im here. willing to talk.

im here. willing to talk. :X

~Eli.