a loong time since ive entered anything here.
been a looong two weeks as well. failing classes. can't get up to make them. bike is toast, ovalized head tube.
been depressed as hell
suicidal as hell,
dad's 64th bday today
sister had to make a mess of it. being a total bitch, telling me i owed her money i already paid her and shit
deleted my facebook acct, too annoyed w/ it currently, and now, i am done for awhille.
was supposed to start my meds again today, but failed to make it to the pharmacy,
fucking going out of my mind again,.
bi-polar disorder sucks, so does PTSD
i am crazy, i can't deny or accept this
my friend commented on my facebook acct i needed a girl to cheer up and chill me out.
thanks asshole. same w. max.
fuck both of you.
stormed out of my dad's adult family home's bday for my dad tonight since sister was being a bitch, walked home in the pouring rain.
ended out on the hood of a car-seattle drivers can't drive for shti in the rain- yes, we pedestrians have right of way when the little walky man is lit up, douchebags.
then i got home, and am now thouroughly drunk, thanks to the IPA's and beer i boguht on the walk home- i never wALK.
and whats more, i made an ass of myslef. yay. i love being me. not.