You know how I said I wasn't going to rage?

Super Duck's picture

Well, please allow me to start off with a little bit of... You guessed it! RAGE. Today when I got to school, I did as the principal instructed. I went by the office and inquired about my precious, much-coveted study hall pass. I told her (the secretary) that the principal himself said I could come pick it up. The secretary lady looked at me like I was fucking stupid and said, "Uh, he didn't tell ME about any study hall passes today." I raged. First of all, I didn't like her tone. I didn't do a damn thing to her. Second of all, I've waited almost 2 weeks, and I've had it up to here. If I don't have that pass tomorrow morning, there will be no more Miss Nice Super Duck. I hope that secretary lady gets peed on by a donkey. Because of her unforgivable insolence, I suffered through another torturous day of study hall. The teacher spazzed because some students put their books back in their bags literally one minute before the bell rang. I fucking wish I was kidding.

I said this in my last journal, but I really think part of the reason why I've been in such a crappy mood lately is the fact that I haven't drawn anything in forever. My history teacher apparently does not want us students to have hobbies. I'm drowning in homework and not learning a thing. I have absolutely no idea how I'll pass the AP exam in May. I've just felt so weird and off lately. I don't know what's going on here. I have a few theories about where this is coming from, but I don't particularly like any of them and therefore will not be sharing them. I want to crawl in bed, cover myself in blankets, and just... not think. Unfortunately, my brain does not seem to understand the concept of not thinking. I am always, always thinking of something. Right now I'm thinking about not thinking. I just want everything to go away.

My chemistry teacher told my class today that the entire purpose of the chemistry course, which is required to graduate, is to prepare us for college chemistry. In the same sentence she said that due to what I want to be, I will probably never have to take chemistry in college. So, uh, if the entire purpose of the class is to prepare us for college chemistry, and I won't be taking college chemistry, why do I have to be in there? For a few years now, I've wanted to be a journalist. Almost all of the jobs requiring chemistry that the teacher listed off involved medicine of some sort. Why is this a required course for everyone? I am not seeing the connection here.

My cat is such an asshole. A baby kitten accidentally got too close for his liking, so he chased it and tried to hurt it. The baby is currently too terrified to move. It's the shy one too, not the one that plays with me. It's still scared, but it has now come out to eat a little food. Poor kitty.

In other news, the French teacher won at life today. Seriously, it was the greatest thing ever. Irritating Girl said she wanted to walk French Class Girl like a dog, and the teacher asked her if she'd like a leash. I ALMOST DIED FROM HOLDING IN MY LAUGHTER! I cannot believe she went there! FCG didn't think it was so funny, though. She was in such a bad mood today... I think she needed a hug, but I didn't dare give her one. I also thought I saw her cry, but she hid her face too quickly for me to be sure. Poor freakazoid. I didn't talk to her today because every time she's sad, I have the uncanny ability to make her even more upset no matter what I say. I always make it 14253 times worse, and I never really mean to. Maybe she'll be better tomorrow.


ReinbowGrl's picture

She is sad cuz she found out

She is sad cuz she found out that you don't love her. And you don't want to have lady babies with her. Cheer her up!!

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I don't need company in the company of you. I don't need love, your love will do. And I've got you and you've got me and this is all you need. I don't need air, I don't need to breathe. I don't need rest, I don't have time to sleep.

Dracofangxxx's picture


And the fact she got her hair cut.
You are beautiful, in every single way <3

Super Duck's picture

Haha, speaking of that, no

Haha, speaking of that, no one could even tell that she got a haircut even though she insisted she did.

Super Duck's picture

If that's what's wrong, then

If that's what's wrong, then how do I cheer her up? Let her rape me a little? D:

jacjessen90's picture

ummm...just to clarify....

don't take this the wrong way, i'll explain my thought process....
"you can't rape the willing" that token if you "LET her rape you a little" it would not be rape, but, consentual involvement,....and i'm gonna shut up now because i think that i hear you creeping up behind me with a baseball bat and 2, yeah....*runs and hides under invisability cloak*

"to live a day alone, only THAT would be torture! An hour without you, only THAT would be death!" ~gomez and morticia addams
"look at him! i would kill for him! i would die for him! either way what bliss!"~gomez addams

Super Duck's picture

You probably could figure

You probably could figure out what I meant! It was like, 6 A.M. when I posted! D:

jacjessen90's picture

yes...i knew what you meant....

however, as my family tells me, and i myself admit, i'm an incurable smart ass and had to have my say...please don't take offence...

"to live a day alone, only THAT would be torture! An hour without you, only THAT would be death!" ~gomez and morticia addams
"look at him! i would kill for him! i would die for him! either way what bliss!"~gomez addams

Super Duck's picture

Haha, no offense taken!

Haha, no offense taken!

swimmerguy's picture

I'm sorry

School people can be stupid. We don't have study hall here... If you get bad grades they just send a note to your parents.
I like it, because then I can sort of ignore school.

No one escapes from life alive

Super Duck's picture

Oh, study hall here is

Oh, study hall here is SERIOUS BUSINESS. In fact, my teacher takes it more seriously than her actual class. It's ridiculous.

loreonpravus's picture

Yeah I've never been in a

Yeah I've never been in a study hall. Did you end up getting the pass?

Super Duck's picture

NO. D: It's apparently

NO. D: It's apparently Monday. My mom says she is gonna call the school Monday and bitch them out if I don't have it. I've waited 2 weeks.

epicfailure's picture

That's stupid. We usually

That's stupid. We usually pack up when there's only 5 minutes to go.
Maybe be FCG's confused about her sexuality or she got reject by someone. Next time you should go up and huge her. words don't need to be said.

* Like what Shaggy said "it wasn't me"*

Super Duck's picture

Upset FCG is unpredictable,

Upset FCG is unpredictable, though... Scared she'd punch me or something. XD