Had a glass of red wine. Which, by any means, should not make me buzzed. But I'm tiny so there.
Had a pretty good Thanksgiving. Sort of avoiding to talk to people until my buzz kicks off so I won't sound like an idiot, but hey! I always do XD
And anyways, it's particularily fun.
I'm one of the happy/lovey drunk people, who just can't stop giggling or hugging people. Which is good, right?
So it's gone but now I remember that I feel like shit.
There's so much going wrong...
You ever feel like you're all alone, like everyone else just turns a blind eye to you? I see them up and walking like zombies, dead looks in their eyes and porcelain smiles. It worries me. I've been trying to keep my cool, but I can't. I am so, so, lonely. There's a little part of me, that wishes my boyfriend wasn't a child. Because that's what he is! I figured it out! I have a boy, when I need a man. He's the sort to be anything but the blame. Even if it makes me want to cut again. I can't ever tell him it makes me want to cut again, but, it does. Like I'm imperfect, impractical, irrational.
I don't know how to approach this problem though. How do I
out of my boyfriend? Without just breaking up with him?
Seriously, if he took our relationship SERIOUSLY, it would be absolutely perfect and nothing would ever be wrong.
But ahh, life sucks,