It was my Grandma's 80th party last night and it has never been such a night of a emotion. Well yes drink does mix into it but that does not strip away everything true. So after the party thing my family and my aunt and uncle went back to my grans and we put some old rat pack music on. Since my grandad died a few years ago my mum gets a bit tearful when all this music that surrounded her youth comes on it comes back to her. So my mum went into a sob and i did feel really sorry for her. Then while we were discussing my grandad, my dad whose mum and dad died before i was born starting to break down too. This completely rocked me as i had never actually seen my dad cry before. Just seeing him with my uncle and aunty talking to him it made me crinkle my scarf up and look down deeply into the glass to stop my tears. Then before that when we had just got in and everybody else was i the living room my uncle who was very drunk started to hug me so deeply and kept saying "I Love you you know your my nephew" and how me and my brothers need to keep being what we are and even though he was far from sober i honestly believed him.
We as human beings can be so protective of ourselves and it can be helpful sometimes when people are drunk as they are not afraid to show there true colours . Our non-stop society has built us to be anxious, on the ball and never frail or transparent to anybody because apparently that is how you get ahead. But i go against that. We should show emotion and free speech because that is really how we get to know the person inside. Tonight was a magical family experience and it could have gone on all night for all i care.