I'm sorry to keep ranting

centerfielder08's picture

I'm sorry to keep ranting like this but its at moments like this when I feel as though that my mind doesn't make sense. Do you sense these gross thoughts comming on? Do you see this chain ? I'm feeling scary right now.

I scare myself sometimes. Is this paranoia? Or a brief fucking psychotic episode?

I don't know. I go through these times where I'm depressed as hell and hopeless and I feel as though its not really me.

Again what the fuck am I saying?
But then again I shouldn't be telling all of you this anyway?
Or should I...there's a reason for everything, right?

Well there cant be. What's the reason or point for my issues?
Do I even have issues? Everyone does. But if everyone does, they wouldn't be issues because then they'd be expected.
And if they're expected then how cant I control them? And if I cant control them is it even mine to control?

AHH. Forget it.

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ferrets's picture

hmmm

a reason for everything? yes. but you personally define the reason

More people have been slaughtered in the name of religion than for any other single reason. That, my friends, that is true perversion.
-Harvey Milk