I'm sorry to keep ranting like this but its at moments like this when I feel as though that my mind doesn't make sense. Do you sense these gross thoughts comming on? Do you see this chain ? I'm feeling scary right now.
I scare myself sometimes. Is this paranoia? Or a brief fucking psychotic episode?
I don't know. I go through these times where I'm depressed as hell and hopeless and I feel as though its not really me.
Again what the fuck am I saying?
But then again I shouldn't be telling all of you this anyway?
Or should I...there's a reason for everything, right?
Well there cant be. What's the reason or point for my issues?
Do I even have issues? Everyone does. But if everyone does, they wouldn't be issues because then they'd be expected.
And if they're expected then how cant I control them? And if I cant control them is it even mine to control?
AHH. Forget it.