sometimes i feel like an onion. happy and fun on the top layer, but as you dig deeper i get more sad and boring. i think people figure this out about me, or i cant figure them out.. i can keep up with amazing people for awhile, but then something happens and makes me think they peeled back one too many layers. they stop talking to me as much, they cut back on jokes they think i wont get. they smile tiredly at a joke i tell, as if theyve heard it a thousand times and i'm so unoriginal. conversations become more stilted, and slowly die off. this can't keep happening.