A few racing thoughts, recorded

centerfielder08's picture

Feeling very depressed.

And I want to be a guy.

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loreonpravus's picture

Hm. Right now, I want to be

Hm. Right now, I want to be a certain guy. I want to be the guy that the girl I like is in love with- tall, handsome, muscular... male...

But otherwise I think I'm okay the way I am.

Sometimes I think if I were taller, my trans feelings would be a lot stronger. But I feel like I'd rather be an average woman than a short man (5'5"), even though I definitely identify most of my mannerisms and behaviours as male. I don't know where that comes from. It's strange.

centerfielder08's picture

No, that makes sense. I'm

No, that makes sense. I'm 5'2" (5'3" on a lucky day.haha). :/

I want to be a man.

I want to buy a binderrrr

loreonpravus's picture

Then get one! I'm kinda big

Then get one!

I'm kinda big (36C- huh, throwing around a lot of measurements here) but if I wear a tight sports bra and a baggy-ish jacket, I would say I'm a pretty good guy, albeit a beardless one.

The other thing that bothers me is my hips. I've got a pretty hourglassish shape, and it's only because I work out that my shoulders look balanced with the rest of me. Would that I were more inverted triangular.

centerfielder08's picture

Ah. yeah. so you have more

Ah. yeah. so you have more advantage in height and such.

I'm rather small chested guy, which is good. I'm a 32 A or 34 A.

Is it sad that this is the most interesting interaction i've had all day?

Talk of this makes me feel better...about us being guys. I think of you as a guy.

funnyflyby's picture

Shrug.

I think of everybody on the planet as a gajindiak automatically. Wow.woW