A long, pointless, miscellaneous collection of thoughts.

funnyflyby's picture

Well the first thing I want to say is, centerfielder08, please log on because you're scaring me. Has anyone heard from him recently? I'm beginning to get really, really worried.
#2: Is anybody else paranoid when it comes to others finding out about Oasis? I dreamed last night that my teachers traced my Internet and when they saw what I'd said on Oasis they refused to accept any more homework and gave me all C's, which would really mess up my life.
#3, also about last night. I know at least MacAvity and lamb_da know this, but my homophobe 'friend' slept over last night. Why I had no say in this, I have no idea. Welll... yesterday was kinda special. It was someone's birthday. Someone being the girl I was talking about in that first stupid forum topic of mine. No, I'm not keeping track of her birthday or anything... But because I'm impulsive and can't control what I say, I started verbally wishing her a happy birthday every five minutes. No, I really did. I couldn't stop. So the homophobe, who I've referred to as Other Friend, so I'll say O for the sake of shortness, begins talking about her opinion on the boy whose locker is next to the B-day girl's. This opinion being that O thinks he's gay. The reasons she has for this are: he's annoyingand drives her crazy, he looked uncomfortable when the health class talked about sexuality, and he 'looks' gay. Um... What, exactly, do I say to that? The first thing to come to mind. "Happy Birthday, (girl's name)!" Such a clever save. Not. However, now she starts talking about her theory of a romance between B-day girl and this boy, who she just said was gay. Um, contradicting yourself much? I pointed this out, and was answered by a "Whatever." Which makes me grumpier. Not to mention that she was talking about B-day's romance, which I'm ashamed of caring about. I really thought I was above that.
Now, why won't O fight with me? I attempted to get her mad at me all night, and she wouldn't. I got pretty annoying, too. GAH!

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MacAvity's picture

Not keeping track of her

Not keeping track of her birthday or anything? A) What's wrong with keeping track of her birthday? and B) What exactly do you call what you've been doing, if not keeping track of her birthday?

Yes, I've been worried about Centerfielder as well. I do hope he's all right.

Unless you've got some motive (it doesn't even have to be a logical one - fear would be a perfectly acceptable reason) not to come out... telling that homophobic Other of yours about yourself would be a good way of getting her to either leave you or reconsider her homophobia. Keep in mind, though, she'd probably tell lots of other people, so it depends on how you feel about the necessity of staying in the closet. Closets are safe, after all, despite their disadvantages.

funnyflyby's picture

Well,

A) I don't really know but it makes me feel like a stalker, B) Um... paying way too much attention...
And I'm about 89% sure O'd tell a lot of people, which is my main reason for not coming out to her. I'm considering it anyway just to shut her up. I'm not ready for a lot of people to know anything just yet, so I'm going to try and get her suspicious but not certain. That probably sounds crazy, but it'd prevent her from going off on these homophobic tangents around me while still keeping her unsure enough to prevent blabbing. My twisted plans...

Bi the Book's picture

i saw him on last week

i saw him on last week during the day. not that im online during school or anything. yea i do worry about people seeing or recognizing me on here. my mom already knows about and she doesnt like the idea of my sharing my thoughts online so shes kinda against it. i already have close 2 friends on here so in terms of friends im ok. there are things that i have said that i really wouldnt want my school or people knowing. and with ur 'friend' i know where you are coming from. i have those issues all the time. all i can say is good luck and stick though it. i know its not good advice but it works.

lamb_da's picture

blaaaahhhhh...the

blaaaahhhhh...the closet.
honestly, i was never really in the closet...not really...
but MacAvity always beat me to the punch bowl so...
you need a hug *huggle*

You're so beautiful, you made me forget my pick up line. ;)

funnyflyby's picture

Thanks for the hug!

I'll tell people if they ask me directly, but I don't plan to just say anything right out. And I guess MacAvity beats almost everybody to the punch bowl.
I appreciate the hug. I needed it :)

lamb_da's picture

more whee those hugs came

more whee those hugs came from! *hughughug*
if you couldn't tell, i like hugs :3

You're so beautiful, you made me forget my pick up line. ;)

MacAvity's picture

Mmmm.... Punch....

Mmmm.... Punch....

funnyflyby's picture

Hey!

Ouch!

Quietwarrior's picture

Agree

I am ALWAYS so scared that someone will find about my oasis it would just be awful especially if it were my family.

centerfielder08's picture

I just found this. sorry for

I just found this. sorry for worrying you guys!

yes. i would be so frightened if one of my friends / family / teachers found oasis. AHH.