YES we have a snow day tomorrow which is the most bizarre thing every here in England and in November. It has been snowing all week and its fascinating. But i have some bad news. My friend that i shall call L was talking to T briefly as he is in her history class and apparently he doesn't really want to come to my party as i haven't really spoken to him. Which yes i completely get and what is wired i am not that bothered! well okay a bit but when she told me instead of thinking "shit, shit oh lord i hate this i need to escape" phrase i normally go through I thought oh well. This whole time i have started this party i have constantly at the back of mind being so worried and anxious about him being there and what i did at the party and would he feel out of place and really stupid stuff. I kept over thinking that he would think i was stupid and creepy and my party compared to all the ones he goes to would be just lame. But now i know that he is not coming it is a relief in a sense. I can now enjoy it more and come to knowledge that this guy is somebody that i need to get over to get forward. Its easier then i thought.
However my other friend that ill call D was telling me about my friend that talked to T. See her, T and D are all in the same form and so occasionally talk. Now when I was always moaning to my friend L about T online she would be always saying how you should not fall for him as he is arrogant and completely up himself and not a nice person. But then D was recently telling me that when she was talking about how she gets annoyed by T to her, L would get mega defensive and say he really is not and stop being so mean which suggests that L fancies him! Right that sounds quite complicated but basically L is a hypocrite and can be such a sneak.
But Im not really bothered because i know he does not fancy her and he already has a girlfriend that he is really into ( more then i thought). Just to add more whats odd is that now his girlfriend is coming to the party who i only invented so he would turn up but oh well.