Inner Turmoil

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I have been questioning my sexuality since I was a freshmen in highschool. At the time, I was living an extremely sheltered life. I had very overprotective parents, and I had a school environment where abnormalities, in particularly that of sexual preference, were just not talked about. I didn't know the concept of homosexuality even existed untill I had gone through an entire year of confused fear and depression. I thought something was wrong with me. My parents attitude toward it made me feel worse. Because I spent so long not accepting reality, here I am at nineteen with absolutely no idea who I am. I am still ashamed of the way I feel because i was taught to feel that way, but I can't go on this way. I have no idea where to go from here. I guess I just needed to get this out. I feel like I'm being pulled in two different directions and there is nothing I can do about it. Being ripped apart by emotions that I can't contol and having no clue what to do to make it better........... (to be cont.)