'That doesn't exist!' Woww.

funnyflyby's picture

Okay, I'll actually try and compose this journal to adress all the things I intend it to before I get all delirious. So-
1. I haven't been keeping up with Oasis so well, sorry. JayJay has been somewhat... I don't know, obsessed about having sleepovers with me. Last night, and 3 nights ago both. And 2 nights ago I plain ol' didn't have anything to really say, and I was exhausted. So sorry if I've been slow about answering anyone who talks to me.
2.Today's Jay's birthday! (That's the reason for the sleepover last night; we were counting down 'till midnight. It's been a tradition since 3rd grade, and it must be honored sacredly.(Is that a word?)
3.I have a new cousin, born on the 26th! I'm happy... though I had to babysit the other 2 cousins (ages 5+ 6) yesterday for a VERY long time...
4.I miss BDAY... whinewhinewhines nobody wants to hear.
5.The POINTof this journal: Mother opinion on genderness! Aren't we all so very happy...not. I hope I don't piss Shelby off again*gulp*
So.. As I said, my brother decided blee/bler/blis is the new gender-neutral pronoun, and I was debating whether or not to adopt it. There are pros and cons.
So, today I was sitting there reading a book and my mom suddenly leans close to me and whispers,'I know you're female.You'll figure it all out soon.' So I asked, of course, 'What do you mean?' (Gotta see how much is KNOWN!)
'Well, I think you've been having some... gender questioning issues lately.'(No duh. I've been correcting you every time you call me 'she'.)
'Um... it's not really questioning. I'm a gajindiak, or androgynous-'
'Androgyny doesn't EXIST! How would you even KNOW?!'
'How doesn't it exist? And I know, okay?'
'You know you're female?'
'I know I have a female BODY.'
'Well, anyway, I know you'll be comfortable in it eventually.What matters is that you keep faith in God,wholoves you whatever body.You're female, though.'
So now God loves me whether I know I'm female or not. Oh-So-comforting.
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625539's picture

'Androgyny doesn't EXIST!

'Androgyny doesn't EXIST! How would you even KNOW?!'

LOL denial much
if it doesn't exist why is there a word for it

"pleasure is absolute, pain is relative."

Dracofangxxx's picture

Hey, hey, hey

I told you I have no problem with you being androgyn. I have a problem with denying that you're female (As in, your body/sex) and forcing other people to use gaj :P

You can be whatever you are, durrrrr. Your mom's being insensitive. Tell her to stop picking fights with you or something.
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You are beautiful, in every single way <3

Uncertain's picture

"Keep faith in God, who

"Keep faith in God, who loves you whatever body. You're female, though."

NEWS: Mother declares God has low standards but prefers vagina.

Super Duck's picture

LOL

This comment made my morning.

centerfielder08's picture

*hugs* so many sleepovers!

*hugs*
so many sleepovers! I haven't had one in a year, maybe more, I would say.

Happy birthday, JayJay!
Dumb question, does JayJay know about you / about Oasis?

As for your Mom, I think denial is a common thing and its hard for some "outsiders" to grasp that although you may physically female, that your sex is female, it doesn't mean your GENDER is female. I read a great quote about it yesterday on Twitter from genderfork : "Mostly male in the head and female in the presentation."
That's what I consider to be the case for me, too, I guess/ I think.

And i think that whole thing with religion and you just not knowing your gender is female, as in you are female you just havent figured it out yet, is a load of crap--I'm sorry. The religion thing makes sense in that many people turn to religion when it comes to explaining this stuff--explaining in the sense that they say it cannot be that youre androgynous or not your born sex because thats not what our religion says, blahblahblah.

centerfielder08's picture

by the way, I've missed you

by the way, I've missed you here, so much, funnyflyby.
I miss seeing your name pop up under ONLINE USERS.
and uncertain, I loved that comment of yours.

funnyflyby's picture

Yeah, thank you, Uncertain!

I needed that. I'll never be able to look at a church the same way again XD
And JayJay knows about me, but not Oasis.
Oh, the mother-denial continues... it's almost funny, actually. My mom makes a point to always be like, 'I'm open to gay people, one of my coworkers is lesbian and I don't care, it's fine, etc. and then still won't see anything about me. Mmmhmm...
Wow.woW