I Don't Know

MetalHead77's picture

i used to have a huge crush on some guy at school and i confronted him over last summer. i knew he was gay so there shouldn't be any awkwardness but he began to avoid me and i got the hint. he obviously had no interest in me. at first it was really hard accepting the fact we could not be together.

after the summer had ended he came back from some "jesus convention" (sorry for putting it like that i just really dont know what to call it) and he was telling people god did not want him to be gay. after that it became extremely easy to let go seeing as how the person had changed into something he was completely not.

though after all this i may not want to be with him anymore but i do want him to be happy. ive tried sending him some journals from this site that are so moving and relatable to his situation. but he ignores them. i dont want him to be himself again for me. i just want him to be himself again so that he can be happy again. if only he could understand that.

on top of all this i try to help all my friends with their issues. some i can help some i cant. some i just dont even want to talk to cause the problems are so petty. i just wish i could stop being the counselor and finally get some of my own help.


ferrets's picture


i know how that is, thinking god despises you for being gay. it sucks. i really hope the guy figures that. cuase i was misareable till i did. :/

"A loving man and woman in a committed relationship can marry. Dogs, no matter what their relationship, are not allowed to marry. How should society treat gays and lesbians in committed relationships? As dogs or as humans?"

Riku's picture

I don't like that. I don't

I don't like that. I don't care how religious you are, there's no justification for telling kids that god hates them as they are, and that they should change something about themselves which is impossible to change. :/

There are plenty of religious figures that are plenty accepting; religion isn't an excuse.


But anyway, I get what you're saying, it's hard when you want to help someone so that they can be happy, but they reject any help you try to give them. I know what that's like. :[

I hope he comes around, for him. It's really sad to see that. He should feel okay with who he is, not like he has to disguise/repress/change it.