i used to have a huge crush on some guy at school and i confronted him over last summer. i knew he was gay so there shouldn't be any awkwardness but he began to avoid me and i got the hint. he obviously had no interest in me. at first it was really hard accepting the fact we could not be together.
after the summer had ended he came back from some "jesus convention" (sorry for putting it like that i just really dont know what to call it) and he was telling people god did not want him to be gay. after that it became extremely easy to let go seeing as how the person had changed into something he was completely not.
though after all this i may not want to be with him anymore but i do want him to be happy. ive tried sending him some journals from this site that are so moving and relatable to his situation. but he ignores them. i dont want him to be himself again for me. i just want him to be himself again so that he can be happy again. if only he could understand that.
on top of all this i try to help all my friends with their issues. some i can help some i cant. some i just dont even want to talk to cause the problems are so petty. i just wish i could stop being the counselor and finally get some of my own help.