Feeling very depressed. Right now I'm having an OOBE (the fastest way for me to say an out-of-body experience). I've been having these often. I've been listening to music for an hour or so and trying to fill out a questionnaire for school. It should be easy because its just stuff like What's your name?, What's your favorite literature? and such, however I'm having some trouble. I've been staring at my computer accomplishing nothing for maybe 45 minutes now. I don't know where time has gone. I've been staring expressionless straight ahead.
This isn't the first time.
I feel so little right now. I am feeling very anxious and very depressed. Aside from that, I don't feel like I'm me, don't feel like I'm living. I'm not really doing anything, its more like things are happening to me. Its a really frightening experience.
I'm semi-excited for tomorrow because I need therapy and I have it tomorrow. But in order to have that, I have to get through class first and blahhh. I'm listening to music right now and I'm not hearing it.
Anyway, I feel awful right now and like I just ...rrggh. I don't even know. I'm sorry.
And I've noticed that I've been gaining weight. I hate it. I want to lose it. All of it. I'm feeling so goshdarn angry right now.