too depressed...

Bi the Book's picture

...to care. i could care less about things that i would be totally excited about or things that would usually make me sad. like yesterday was the first day i had ever had a friend over at my house, we had fun, but the usual me would have been ecstatic, and i was just...i don't actually know. we had fun, but not as much as we would have if i were not so depressed. i'm starting to think that i am actually depressed and not just sad. it's affecting me physically and mentally. i am not thinking things through and i haven't slept well in...i don't know how long. i'm stuck. i'm not sure where to go or what to do. i am honestly too depressed to care...about anything anymore. i want me back.

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MacAvity's picture

This does sound like medical

This does sound like medical depression. Have you considered seeking outside help?

Bi the Book's picture

i have but it involves my

i have but it involves my parents, and they're gonna freak out and panic or think that im over reacting or something. i don't know. it seems like too much of a hassle.

try not to regret anything...because at one point it was exactly what you wanted

elph's picture

A casual discussion...

with a school nurse or counselor would be a good first step.

Bi the Book's picture

i would but one school

i would but one school counselor tells your parents everything you tell her. even when she says she wont and the other i'm not that close to. the dean of students is the one i am closest to but she is always busy in meetings or with work. so i still feel like its too much of a hassle. thank you for the input. i'll try it and see if i can get enough courage to do it.

try not to regret anything...because at one point it was exactly what you wanted