When they checked my levels

centerfielder08's picture

I won't be able to fall asleep unless I write this, so here goes...

Going back a few months to August 29, 2010. When they checked my sanity levels. I Won't give you all the gross details of what the waiting game was like when I was in the emergency room. Unless you want them, that is.

But for the first time in three different visits to the emergency room over the course of these last two years, this was the first time they checked my sanity. Actually. They asked me if I knew what year it was and if I could tell them who was the president and where I was at the time.

They asked me four times over Have you had anything to drink? Do you drink? Illegal drugs? Smoke? No, no, no, no. Tonight I felt buzzed by anxiety, not alcohol. Never had any alcohol, never have I done drugs, never smoked anything of any sort.

And yet they demanded I be breathalized. IT was my first time it was so scary. I couldn't help but laugh. But I had to stop before they gave me funny looks. So I did.

They kept insisting I give them a urine sample but I said how I just cannot, for the life of me, go to the bathroom when I'm so anxious I'm sick like that. So they kept waiting and asking me again. I never did go.

But they checked my sanity levels for the first time in three tries. I don't know why, but this is weird for me.

And then in the background, I heard patients in the waiting room, after all, we were in a low-income city and I had only curtains hiding me from everyone else and their ghastly faces as they sat with their families, huddled, in the waiting room. A baby was wailing, apparently it needed stitches and they started to bandage up the wrong foot. Can you imagine not seeing which foot is swollen?

And then there I stayed from 9pm to 1am, never questioned by my roommates of where I was that night, even though all the other times I had been fast asleep before they came back from their parties. They never wondered.

And they made me change into these gross straw-like clothes. I felt invaded. That was the day they checked my sanity levels.

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funnyflyby's picture

Ughness.

Bleah...
*hugs*
Wow.woW

Riku's picture

Aww. *hugs* I'm sorry you

Aww.

*hugs*

I'm sorry you had to go through that.

JUST SO YOU KNOW, I think you're awesome. I don't know why I'm telling you this now but I am. YOU ARE AWESOME. You're also very strong, even if you don't realize it.

funnyflyby's picture

Of course!

Eli is very much awesome, I actually yelled 'Eli is AWESOME!' to my friends by accident once, when they were discussing the name 'Eli'...
I agree on the 'strong' one, too. Though there's no random story to that one.
Wow.woW

kamkam's picture

aww..

*hugs*

lamb_da's picture

i'm tempted to make a snide

i'm tempted to make a snide remark or try down play it by making a joke because my brain likes to avoid such heavy subjects, but instead, i'm explaining this to you.

i'm sorry.

You're so beautiful, you made me forget my pick up line. ;)

SydCybertronian's picture

People can be so

People can be so non-understanding that it amazes me sometimes. In a bad way. :(

MacAvity's picture

Ooh, that's terrible! Hug?

Ooh, that's terrible! Hug?

centerfielder08's picture

Funnyflyby---hugs! Riku---I'm

Funnyflyby---hugs!
Riku---I'm truly honored. Thank you. I think you're super awesome. I miss our talking to each other.
Funnyflyby---I appreciate it. Boo for lacking random stories ;)
Kamkam---thanks, hugs back!
Lamb_da---aw, thank you. and don't be sorry. you made me smile. thanks.
SydCybertronian---I agree. why can't evolution take care of the stupidity thing? And just like weed out stupid ppeople?
MacAvity---thanks. Hug back!