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empty-corridors's picture

Hello, my name is...

C-O-N-F-U-S-E-D.

Let's start from the beginning, shall we?

Since the myth of cooties was debunked sometime in the fourth grade, I've always leaned toward the heterosexual side. My sexual orientation was never anything I actively questioned, or at least, until this year.

I saw h-e-r. We'll refer to her as Lea, even though that's not her actual name. (At least, I'm pretty certain that that isn't her actual name. I'm ashamed to say that I'm attracted to a girl whose name I don't even know, but it's the truth.)

It was the most unromantic meeting one could imagine. I stood in line in the girl's bathroom and saw her as she walked in. I'm not certain why, but our eyes immediately locked even though I hadn't planned on staring at her, and she didn't look away. She smiled faintly, and all I could see were those soulful brown eyes looking up at me. I broke eye contact before she would think me strange. Her face is unforgettable, and since that day, I haven't been able to think of anyone else.

Today, I saw Lea again. It turns out that we both have a zero period, and I opened the door to the girls' locker room just as she walked there. I held the door open for her and she smiled, and I quickly looked away and let my hair fall into my eyes, heart pumping and palms sweaty. It was those large eyes, those full lips that drove me a little mad.

And now I really want to find out who she is.

Comments

MacAvity's picture

Welcome!

Welcome to Oasis.

This sounds.... incredibly like where I was two years ago. First period math class, my first day at my new school, looked around at the room and eyes lit on 'h-e-r' - Grey. I didn't know her name, either, and wouldn't for a while - I was too dazzled to actually remember it even after she introduced herself to me after class. Of course, it wasn't until two years later that I let my suspicion/conviction/idea that I might be anything-other-than-straight be acknowledged outside of my own most private thoughts.... and now here I am.

When someone dazzles you at first sight like that, you have to do something. I don't know what you can do, but this is the beginning of a beautiful story - it could be a romance, or a tragedy like mine, just don't let it be no story at all. My only other advice is this: Keep journalling here. It helps.

And again, welcome, Empty Corridors. Beautiful name, by the way.

funnyflyby's picture

Well!

MacAvity seems to have covered pretty much everything. As is customary XD
So... uh... Welcome! And good luck!
Wow.woW

Dracofangxxx's picture

Hey, by your picture, you seem like to draw

Which is cool, I love art and drawing :D

But seriously, don't be shy, go get some! Girls seem to be the much more friendly type for random conversations anyways :P

Welcome here! :D

jeff's picture

Welcome to Oasis...

Hope you have a good time here.

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"Wanting to be someone else is a waste of the person you are." - Kurt Cobain

elph's picture

One, two magical encounters!

Let me know if I'm incorrect... but isn't this (or some inconsequential variant) the initial stirrings of all romance?

Whether there's a follow-up or not... these furtive encounters can certainly contribute to many wonderful daydreams. I hope, however, that you'll take the next step and truly make her acquaintance.

The future is yours to enjoy!

Oh... Welcome to Oasis! You're bound to find many here with whom you can share experiences.

Bobbie's picture

Hey

Hi! Welcome to the site!

I haven't really found any major crushes yet of either gender myself. Best of luck, pm me if you'd like to chat

Smile :)
Forget peoples rude remarks
Those people are just jealous of your awesomeness!!!!