It's been a while since I've made a normal journal entry.... not much has been going on in my offline life, but there's been a lot of drama on here, which I, like everyone else, have no desire to continue.
My brother now has an iPod loaded with almost the entire music collection of our dad (all but what hasn't yet been converted from tape to whatever-it-is-that-iPods-play... my mind still plays tapes, not that that's especially relevant), but never plays anything on it but the Beatles. And that's fine with me - great, actually. It makes me think of Grey, who was - is - a fan of the Beatles, and thinking about her isn't painful to me anymore. My heart still belongs to her, though. And something else occurred to me a few weeks ago: I've always loved Grey even though I've always known that she never felt the same about me, but I stopped loving Leigh as soon as it sunk in that he really didn't care about me. And that means a lot to me; it assuages any doubts as to whether I actually loved Grey. For a while I feared that I might have been mistaken; now I know I was not.
The main point of this entry is that I met a real-life gajindiak today. Gaj didn't know about the word gajindiak, of course, but did identify gajself as having a gender that was neither male nor female, just didn't have a word for it. Gaj came to tell the Gay-Straight Alliance a lot of stuff about what it means to be transgender, and many of the little subcategories of transgender, and so forth, most of which I already knew and some of which disagreed with what I've previously learned. But to many of the other members of the Gay-Straight Alliance, this information was totally new, so they are now more educated, which is great. And I showed them my circle diagram of gender (it looks just like my circle diagram of sexuality), and the guest speaker liked it and asked if gaj could show it to other people in the future, so apparently my circle diagram is pretty good too. The diagram gaj had before was just a straight-line spectrum with a cloud around it, which is also good in a certain way of looking at it. And now my school's Gay-Straight Alliance knows that I'm genderqueer and that I know some things they might not about genderqueerity, which will probably make for some good discussion in future meetings. But mostly, I'm excited because I met a gajindiak in real life. Wish I could meet the gajindiak in real life.
I'm also excited because we're starting to learn about the skeletal system in class, and bones are one of my favorite things - skulls especially. There are two complete human skulls and pieces of at least four more in the classroom now, and that makes me super happy.
Oh yeah, and the National Merit Scholarship people just sent word that I'm officially a 'Finalist.' So, honor and glory accomplished, it's now up to the sponsors whether they want to give me any money. I'm pretty happy with the honor and glory, really.
So, the blonde, the brunette, and the redhead... Yes, they were crossing the street, as I was walking home, and I thought, 'That's funny. There's actually a blonde, a brunette, and a redhead, walking together. I don't know whether I've ever actually seen that before.'
So, yeah. Great day.