why i am so strange with friendship
I sometimes daydream of making friends with people and hanging out. I mean i feel so stupid that i fantasises over this. blahhhhhh i feel so dumb its unreal.
I crave a best friend. You know when you see people ( i.e my two close friends) that completely get one another and see each other all the time and are always treat them above anybody else. I always feel the odd number of our small friendship group which is only 5 of us and even though i get along perfect with my friend France i shall call, she is BFFLing with my friend who shall be called Mermaid who my friendship now feels closed. So it feels like it comes me being the spare part again.
Oh i feel so immature in this post but whatever