So I've been having major dysphoria and like hating my body and all that "fun" stuff. What I don't get is that I never thought I really had a chest but now its like, I do. I wear my binder and it doesn't get me flat. Which I know, I shouldn't complain because some people can't even get binders. But what I don't understand is that on YouTube, its like there are guys with bigger chests than mine and somehow the binder binds them super well. But for me, it barely binds, if at all, really. Could I just be too flat to benefit even from an XS? Its pretty easy for me to get my binder on so I don't know if that's a bad indication even from the beginning.
Right now I just want to not see any shape there. And I don't know how to hide them. Layering bras and binding helped for a few days, maybe, but now it seems to make no difference.
Gah, sorry to be all negative, I told myself I wouldn't post negative stuff here, but I just really could use some (even cheesy) lines like "it will be okay, Eli. you're still a guy in my book" or something of the sort.