Sigh I'm just depressed today.
See for awhile now I've been looking on youtube at all the transitioning or sucseffully transitioned wemon and I see them and Its like a poison seeping into my veins. I see them and then I see myself and I just want it all to start happening, I don't want to wait for hormones, and for counselling and all that.
I just want it all to be done with already so that I can go back to school as a girl in every sence of the word. I want to laugh with my friends and just talk with them about meaningless every day things, as me, as my true self.
But I can't
cause I't all takes money, and time, and a lot of other thnigs I don't have yet, and I just want to be normal for once.
I know that being a girl won't solve all (if any) of my problems but I like to think that it would at least make them easier to deal with.
Thanks for listening